I was going to write this up, but thought it might be better coming from the horse’s mouth. She’s let me reprint it here.

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So most of you know that it was my birthday on Wednesday. I turned 22 and had a good day! What I was really waiting for though, was my present from Alex. He’d told me very little about it, except that it would take my breath away. And it did. This is how he did it.

The present was split into 5 parts. I didn’t know what these parts would be, and I was so confused and nervous I was going insane! Alex wouldn’t tell me anything. Not a thing. Nad’s kept saying “Oh my god! You’re present is so amazing!” and I was thinking, “WHAT THE HELL IS IT” haha. Well I knew it would be pretty special. Alex and I met on this Myspace thing about 5 or 6 months ago. Since our first conversation, we have spoken nearly every day. We know each other inside out. That isn’t necessarily because we have told each other everything, we seem to have this amazing ability to just “know” what the other is thinking and feeling. When he comes on msn, I know straight away what mood he is in. I’m always right, I don’t know how I do it, but it’s weird, in the most special way possible. The same happens to him. If I’m upset, or angry, no matter how hard I try to cover it up, he always says “what’s wrong”. Sometimes I don’t even need to speak. What me and Alex have is very special. I trust Alex completely. I can tell him anything, and him me. People should be jealous. Hehe.

Part one was the anticipation. I didn’t know this untill the very end, but my god it was done so well! My heart was in my shoes with fear, excitement, frustration, anxiety, nerves, the lot! I was told to drive to a hotel just outside my town. I had to call Alex before I set off so he could confirm everything was in place. The number I was given to call him on was a London number. I couldn’t call him on his mobile because he was in a meeting. Before this day I had wondered if he would be there waiting for me at the hotel. But no. I called the London number, and he picked up. So what the hell could it be? On the way there all I could think was “Oh fuck”.

So I pulled up, got out the car, and made my way to the reception. I had to say, “Hi, my name’s Emma and you have something for me!”. How fucking gay would that have been if they’d said, “erm, no sorry but we don’t have anything for you.” But they did. They gave me a room key, and a bright pink envelope with “Emma” scrawled across it. Shit. So I made my way to the room. Due to my nervousness, it took me AGES to get the bloody door open. It was one of those card key things, and in my experience, you put the card in, then open the door. But no! This one, you had to put in, then take out, THEN open the door. For god sake, as if I didn’t feel nervous enough as it was. I was stood there trying to open the fucking door like a blind thick ass, because the instructions were on the back, but in my current state, I wouldn’t have even been able to open a packet of crisps.

Anyway, I eventually got the door open. There, lying on this big four poster bed, was Alex. HAHA! Only joking, no there was a bright pink bag with something in it, with a gorgeous white rose and a CD lying on top. I immediately smiled to myself. Then I had a sudden thought. I checked the bathroom, the wardrobe, even the drawers, just to make sure I was alone and nobody was going to suddenly give me the heart attack that was already well on its way. I sat down on the bed and opened the envelope I had been given at reception. There was a card in it with another telephone number, a blank piece of pink card, and a shocking pink pen. I called this number. (another London number). Suddenly Alex’s voice was on the end of the line. A pre recorded message. He was instructing me to put the CD into the CD player, follow the instructions, and have fun. Fuck. So anyway, me being me, is only half hearing the recorded message and tries to put the CD into the television. I’m searching it for little rectangle shaped holes for the CD to slot into, when suddenly I look at the cover and see “CD-R” written on it. ARGH!!! Somebody should have walked in and slapped me right there and then. I was a mess. I’d never met Alex, and there I was, receiving the most amazingly though out gift on earth. So the CD went into the CD player. I pressed play. Again, it was Alex’s voice. He has the sexiest voice on earth by the way.Ahem. Where was I? Oh yeah. This time, he went through every single gift in the box. Explained it’s meaning, and why it was there. The box everything was held in was a shirt box. It had been modified, and made he’s had it covered in some sort of “material” that was only made when forests are burnt down! Something like that anyway, I left the CD at the hotel so can’t remember the exact name of it. But the most amazing thing about the box was the colour. Now I love pink. It’s my favourite colour. But Alex hadn’t chosen just any pink for the box. He had taken every single sample of pink I had ever used on the computer, i.e.; my msn messages, my Myspace profile colour, etc, and he’d had someone put them all together to come out with “MY pink”. Wow. Wow is all I can say about that. What sort of person would go to all that trouble just to get the right colour box? I’ll tell you who. Alex Cameron. Because he is the sweetest, most thoughtful person out there. You’ll never meet anyone like him. Ever.

So what was inside the box. Well it’s almost as if Alex has been taking notes about me and the things I love from day one. Everything that was in that box had a meaning. There were 22 things in the box. Here are a few.

Pro plus - because I’m always tired

Plasters - because I’m so clumsy

French toast and a mini tin of baked beans - cause I love them

A map of London - cause its where I’m moving to

A tea bag - I’m always drinking it

A bottle of rose - I love the stuff

I bottle of Smirnoff - I love the stuff

A black top with MBGITW put onto it. - It’s who I am to him

A letter he wrote me printed out and put into a frame - cause it’s bloody amazing and I want remember it forever

Dirty dancing DVD - Cause I love it even though he hates it

There was so much more. But you can see there’s a lot of thought been put into it. I’m not missing detail out deliberately, I just want to get to the good part. Hehe.

So anyway. On each gift was a pink strip of paper wrapped around. On the CD Alex had informed me I had to use the ultra-violet pen provided, to read the messages on each. On each, there would be a letter underlined. I had to note these letters down, work out a code, then call somebody’s fucking mobile number and give them the code! HA! He wanted me to work out a code. He wanted me to work out a code in the state I was in. Oh good god. Lol. He even provided background music for me at the end of the CD so I could do my de-coding to it. Hehe. Okay, so I got the code. I rang the number, it was Marcel. Alex’s good friend. He told me that Alex had sorted it out so that if ever I need help with my course then I was to phone him, or email him, and he would help me out. What a cool thing!! Then, Marcel said “I’ll just nip and get Alex for you, he’s in a meeting still”. I think, “Ok, so he really isn’t here.” Marcel then comes back and says, give him a ring in 5 minutes when he’s out of the meeting. So I call Alex after 5 minutes. He tells me there’s a secret hidden compartment in the box, and that I am not to look until he has hung up. I have to text him with the answer to the thing that’s hidden, in one word. OH MY GOD!!!!!! Lol. So he hangs up. I find the hidden compartment, it’s a piece of paper right at the bottom, it says “If I could be anywhere in the world right now, where would you want me to be?”. Fuck. That’s when I knew. He was right here in my town. I forgot to mention that another of his gifts was a tiny electronic device that buzzes when ever he gets within 30 feet of me. My eyes were on it the whole time after that. So I text him, and say, “here”. He replies and says, “there’s a bottle of champagne waiting for you at the old farmhouse”. I text back and say” where the fuck are you”. He calls me and says “You didn’t think I wouldn’t hand deliver it did you?”. I’ve put that sentence in bold letters because it will stay in my head forever.

Like a fly straight into the spiders web you might say. Haha.

So I’m in his hotel room. He tricked me. Oh my god. I’m pacing around the room like a fucking maniac! He takes ages to arrive. I have the buzzy thing in one hand, and my phone in the other. The carpet is nearly worn out, and I need to be at work soon. Lol. So There’s a knock on the door. I just freeze for what seems like an hour. I go to answer the door. I can’t quite grip the handle though. It slips out my hand and closes on him. Oooopsy. Hehe. I tried again. I could hear him speaking on the phone. The door opened, but nobody was there. Huh? And then he appeared from the side of the door. I cannot actually remember what was going through my head at that point. I think it was a mixture of shock, nerves, excitement, and pure fear. The first thing he said was “Hello you”. Hello me. Yep. Hi. I wanted to shake his hand! Lol. But I stopped myself and let him into his hotel room. I sat down on the sofa. He sat down on the chair. He started talking. Just talking away like he does. I have absolutely no idea what he was saying. I couldn’t think straight. Couldn’t concentrate on anything. I was just thinking, “This is the guy I have been talking to for all those months, the guy who knows just about everything about me, the guy who makes me smile every single day just by coming on line. That’s all I could think. I laugh when on films people touch the other person to see if they’re real or not. But now I know where that comes from. Cause I really wanted to fucking check! Just for a minute, cause everything was so surreal! Nobody had ever done what he’d just done, and an hour ago I thought he was in London. But now he was sitting in front of me talking non stop about something I wasn’t listening to. I could tell he was nervous. It’s a good job he likes to talk. Cause if he didn’t, the room would be in silence, and things would probably be a bit awkward. I couldn’t speak. I was a pathetic mess.

But I had to go. I had already told work I would go in for a few hours because I hadn’t known then that Alex would be making an appearance! I told him I’d be back later on, and off I went. I was in such shock that I left my purse in the room. But I wasn’t in the slightest bit worried. I trust this guy one hundred percent. Even though we’d never met before, I feel as if I know him.

Work dragged. I didn’t wanna be there. I wanted to be with Alex getting to know him better! I hadn’t eaten all day because I was so excited. Now I couldn’t eat cause I was so nervous! Alex wanted to go out and eat, but I couldn’t. I do have a slight fear of eating in front of people I don’t know, but that wasn’t the reason. I just wanted to get to know Alex properly alone. So I text him and said so. He replied saying “as you wish” and next thing I knew he was on his way to the supermarket stocking up for the night.

So work finishes, I go home, get changed, and head back out again to where Alex is. Once again my heart is doing flips, but I’m not half as nervous for some reason. I get to the room and the door is already open for me. Which I like. Much better than the whole “I can’t open the fucking door ” incident repeating itself. I walk in, and he’s sat on the window ledge having a crafty cigarette out the window. He asked for a smoking room and didn’t get it. He smells gorgeous. He doesn’t look much like his photo’s though. Well of course he looks like his photo’s, but I suppose in person you can see more. The eye colour is what I loved most. Very piercing.

Alex had stocked up with champagne, chocolates, marsh mallows, vodka and rose wine (which he knows I love). He poured me a vodka and we started chatting. There was no awkwardness or anything like that. I felt totally at ease with him. He wanted to watch the film “Silent Hill” with me as he was too scared to watch it on his own. So we started to watch that. He talked all the way through it. Haha! But it was cool.

We talked about everything. From ruling the world, to how to make a pepper turn blue. We looked at midget porn (Alex’s request not mine) and we ordered a camping stove from reception.

Alex made me laugh so much. We got on really well and we just clicked straight away.

Something I noticed about Alex right away was that everything he feels shows in his eyes. So I always knew exactly what he was feeling.

Well I won’t go into anymore detail, cause I’ll be here all day. And I’m only doing it cause I want to relive every minute f it. We had an amazing night together. One I’ll never forget. Me and Alex have fallen out a few times, and with anyone else I would have just walked away. But with him I never could. I knew there must be a reason for that and now I fully understand why. People often get carried away over the internet. People can be who ever they want to be and not themselves. You can be easily led astray and lose all sense of reality. But with him, my instincts were right. I had to leave and go home that night. I couldn’t stay, I wanted to, but I thought it would be best if I left and stopped things right where they were. It was hard to do, but had to be done.

So now what happens? Who knows! He took the plunge and went for something I was too scared to do. And it turned out to be amazing. When he left the next day, I was in two minds about asking him to stay or not. I didn’t want him to go, but I was already upset about him leaving and I knew it would only make things worse for me. I missed him the instant I walked out his door! We are both at different stages in our lives right now. A part of me doesn’t care and just wants to be with him every second of the day, and another is telling me that I should wait and not to rush into anything. That’s where me and Alex differ slightly. He rushes into things and thinks with his heart. I think with my head most of the time. Maybe I should break that habit and go with it. I know I want to. And I know that what ever the future has in store for me and him, It’s gonna be good.