Archive for August, 2007

31
Aug

noah and 21st century bureaucracy

In the year 2007, the Lord came unto Noah, who was now living in England and said, “Once again, the earth has become wicked and over-populated, and I see the end of all flesh before me. Build another Ark and save 2 of every living thing along with a few good humans.”

He gave Noah the CAD drawings, saying, “You have 6 months to build the Ark before I will start the unending rain for 40 days and 40 nights. ” Six months later, the Lord looked down and saw Noah weeping in his yard- but no Ark.

“Noah!” He roared, “I’m about to start the rain! Where is the Ark?”

“Forgive me, Lord,” begged Noah, “but things have changed. I needed Building Regulations Approval because the Ark was over 30m2. I’ve been arguing with the Fire Brigade about the need for a sprinkler system. My neighbours claim that I should have obtained planning permission for building the Ark in my garden because it is development of the site even though in my view it is a temporary structure, but the roof is too high.

We had to go to appeal to the Secretary of State for a decision. The Local Area Access Group complained that my ramp was going to be too steep, and the inside of the Ark wasn’t fully accessible, then the Department of Transport demanded a bond be posted for the future costs of moving power lines and other overhead obstructions, to clear the passage for the Ark ’s move to the sea. I told them that the sea would be coming to us, but they would hear nothing of it.

Getting the wood was another problem. All the decent trees have Tree Preservation Orders on them and we live in a Site of Special Scientific Interest set up in order to protect the spotted owl. I tried to convince the environmentalists that I needed the wood to save the owls - but no go!

When I started gathering the animals, first Defra stopped me moving animals due to the Foot & Mouth outbreak and then the RSPCA sued me. They insisted that I was confining wild animals against their will. They argued the accommodation was too restrictive, and it was cruel and inhumane to put so many animals in a confined space.

Then the County Council, the Environment Agency and the Rivers Authority ruled that I couldn’t build the Ark until they’d conducted an environmental impact study on your proposed flood.

I’m still trying to resolve a complaint with the Equal Opportunities Commission on how many BMEs I’m supposed to hire for my building team. The trades unions say I can’t use my sons. They insist I have to hire only CSCS accredited workers with Ark-building experience.

To make matters worse, Customs and Excise seized all my assets, claiming I’m trying to leave the country illegally with endangered species. So, forgive me, Lord, but it would take at least 10 years for me to finish this Ark. ”

Suddenly the skies cleared, the sun began to shine, and a rainbow stretched across the sky.

Noah looked up in wonder and asked, “You mean you’re not going to destroy the world?”

“No,” said the Lord. “The government beat me to it.”

19
Aug

know your enemy’s attack vector

“The Devil is easy to identify. He appears when you’re terribly tired and makes a very reasonable request which you know you shouldn’t grant.”

Fiorello La Guardia, former mayor of New York City

Life isn’t meant to be easy. Who the fuck thought it was a good idea to bring any child up thinking that they should expect a smooth ride? Once you accept life is meant to be hard, everything gets a lot easier. When you think about it, the notion of expecting anything and everything to be easy is patently absurd and utterly ridiculous. Its also incredibly damaging in some cases. Sheltering someone can be tantamount to murder by compassion, aka killing with kindness.

You can never please everyone. In fact the likelihood is that almost anything you do is likely to piss someone off. Its stupid, naive, a total waste of time and energy, not to mention childish, to go around trying to keep everyone happy. You’ll collapse before you get 30% of the way through. There are always vested interests and people who don’t want to see you succeed in even the smallest ventures, for so many different reasons. The silly thing is our shock and surprise when we finally clock it. Its easier to accept how disruptive you putting your head over the edge is going to be and doing it anyway, regardless of how many get put out of joint because of it. In short, fuck them. Fuck everyone.

It seems the very mention of my name is disruptive. I can’t go near a girl without a hundred other guys rushing straight in afterwards or having the ex turn up and go mental. People read this website, see the confidence shining out of it and are automatically unsettled. I’m different to the norm, and that makes a lot of people very uncomfortable as they don’t quite know how to take it. It could be incredibly threatening, or just something they don’t understand. The other side of that coin is how many girls email me thinking i have the answer to their problems or can fix them somehow.

I’ll never forget the day when the importance of vested interests was impressed on me. It was a cold bitter day in Mayfair, which suited the whole atmosphere of the few months i’d been living in. I was having coffee with a mentor of mine who was punching into me for being so wet behind the ears, and naturally i thought i knew it all. He asked me who i was pissing off with what i was doing, and who would try to stop me succeeding. I drew back slightly as i hadn’t thought about - the idea of someone going out of their way to fuck up what i was on course for hasn’t entered my mind, and up until that point i had never thought i was particularly innocent.

Understanding the whys and hows of vested interests is important. In many cases, its in someone’s self-interest to deliberately keep you weak or ignorant. When all the men dating the girls around you are bastards, ambitionless losers and/or allegedly crap in bed, you don’t educate or help them. The more of them there are around, the more special and unique you seem. Helping them to be better is effectively shitting on your own doorstep and poisoning your own lunch when you could be using it to your own advantage. Bullying people and keeping them down is a very convenient way of putting yourself up in the limelight. Your success can be dependent on the failure of everyone else, as so much in this life is determined by perception.

Knowing there are people out there who don’t want you to succeed, or who will actively seek to stop you from succeeding is a hard pill to swallow. But not swallowing it is a lot more dangerous. They are there, and you have enemies whether you like it or not. Often they are those who are closest to you or the people you call your friends. You can’t fight a battle or resist nefarious scheming when it can’t be seen or doesn’t appear to exist. Jealousy, envy, resentment or just plain malice stalk you looking for an opportunity to drive the knife in when you are at your weakest. Your success highlights their failures and casts you in the limelight instead of them.

A vector, in biological terms, is a an organism that carries a disease but is not affected or infected by it. It simply acts to transport the source of the illness with immunity to it. The malarial parasite is carried by female Anopheles mosquitoes but the insects themselves do not suffer malaria. An attack vector is a way to attack someone, a method, strategy, back door or angle that a payload of hurt or suffering can be delivered through. In human terms, that vector tends to be a person, but it can be a number of others things.

Sun Tzu’s advice for aspiring generals is to both know thy enemy and know thyself, as you will then be successful in 100 battles. The question you have to ask is where exactly is your weakest point, and if there were one thing an enemy of yours could attack. where would it hurt the most? There you will find the target for an attack vector. The next thing to do is work out who or what the vector could be. In my case, the answer is pretty obvious. She’s female, batshit insane and lives in Scunthorpe. If you want to fuck me up, you would use her to do it. This isn’t a case of knowing your strengths and weaknesses, as that is a passive cause and DIY repair job. Knowing your attack points is understanding your death triggers.

Once you see where you are weakest and identify the continuous stream of attack vectors, then you are supreme. Every day a new one appears, so it is perpetual process that can be very hard. Your words will be used against you, your identity and integrity will be attacked, and this world is full of bitter inferiority-complexed impotent failures who would like nothing more than to pull you down into the pit they stew in to keep them company. Love has no place here when it comes to survival, only ruthlessness. Human parasites and spiritual vampires roam around looking for others to feed off just to satiate their longing for recognition and validation. And if they can’t generate it themselves, they will suck it out of the people who are most visible.

I go out to anger those people now. For me, the backlash leveled at me is a quasi-barometer of how successful i am. The more they whinge, the more vocal they get, the more they fear me and the more resistance i encounter is a great measure of just how well think i’m doing. I curse them with utter contempt simply as armchair critics are hilariously narcissistic and have nothing to show for themselves apart from their sewer mouths, slimy dispositions and weakened minds. You don’t give up just because the nasty man told you he didn’t like it. As Oscar Wilde once said so wisely, a critic is someone who knows the price of everything and the value of nothing.

I know my enemies, but i can’t see all of them as much as i try and as much as friends try to point them out to me, only to suffer my righteous indignation. Sometimes the scheming around me gets so bad i eventually strike out and do my best to teach the offending parties exactly why they shouldn’t try to out-flank or strip me of what i am. One notorious example was earlier in the year, when one girl was doing her best to bring me to my knees, and another was taking advantage of the situation to have me to herself. They both learned very painfully, and suffered for it. One got thrown out of my life very unceremoniously to her surprise, and the other got used and again thrown out.

The moral of the story is to never assume i’m weaker just because my heart’s in pieces. I came out on top as i recognised what they were doing and set them on each other instead of me. I will never apologise for being fiercesome in that regard - if you want to inflict emotional violence and manipulative schemes, i will act. I’ve bankrupted people, humiliated them in public, torn them to pieces emotionally and caused abject chaos more times than i care to remember simply to burn a path to my own salvation past the carnage. I learned to defend myself from 20 years of continuous argument and destructive hell in the place that was supposed to be my home. You don’t have the same training or resilience, neither does anyone else you know.

The vector is almost always something that is either unaware or complicit in someone’s game or attack, but rarely both. The payload is a message of some kind that they want to adsorb, or evidence they want you to see to back up their case. It’s designed to have an effect and de-rail you for their own reasons. Most frequently it attacks your heart - that you’re not good enough, it won’t work, they don’t care etc. The vector approach is so visceral and deadly as they use the middleman carrier that you love and trust to deliver the message, when whereas if it came from them directly your guard and emotional armour would be on to deflect it. Not only do you have to be on guard against your enemies, but your friends and loved ones. The devastation is far worse when its the latter.

One technique i teach those i care about in the art of defending themselves is learning to recognise someone’s internal dialogue when they are insulting you, and it earned me the nickname “One Killer” in college due to me being able to effectively silence anyone in one sentence. The secret is absurdly simple. When someone is furious, they are deeply vulnerable as they are being ruled by uncontrollable emotions so can’t think properly. Because they only have themselves as a reference point for the rest of the world, when they insult you they throw the words at you that would hurt them the most. As soon as you hear what that worst thing is, they’ve betrayed their weakness - the thing that would hurt them the most to hear.

Let’s say that some obnoxious moron is shouting abuse at you during a rather vicious argument, and in their anger they call you “ugly” and denigrate your looks as much as they can, despite it being very little to do with what you’re arguing about. You know from that point on that they going out of their way to hurt you in spite. Unfortunately for them, they’ve just told you what hurts the most - criticism of the way they look. Throw it straight back to them 10x harder with painful details, and they’re fucked. Watch for this, and you’ll win every time. Just take a twist of their insult and make it more damaging. Use your enemies and profit from your mistakes.

Wisdom brings with it the end of innocence, and the price of freedom, as they say, is eternal vigilance - vigilance against those threatening you and stealing from you, and from people ahead of you doing their best to erect barriers for you to crash into and even just simply making it impossible to get what you want. Only the naive fall alongside the path as they refuse to accept the dark side of their own nature, and the rest of the human race’s nature. If you want to win, you have to learn to fight and be dispassionate enough that you can be ruthless when you need to be, against those who deserve it because they’ve behaved themselves into something they can’t talk their way out of. Anyone who has to prove something doesn’t believe it themselves. Anyone who is bluffing will over-compensate. That is how you spot lies and a message that is not reflecting the truth.

Dealing with your enemies and their vectors is not easy, as the whole process is malignant and knotted. In the case of those whose tactics are blunt and obvious (e.g. jealousy), you must dismantle their apparatus by separating the sender from the carrier. In cases where the emotional violence is more subtle, you have to lay a trap with compelling bait, draw them out into the light and cast out the demon by identifying it for what it is, humiliating it in the process with the same degree of malevolence that was thrown at you. After that, its time to again take away the scaffolding that gives them the route and foothold to hurt you. Fighting fire with fire rarely works.

Vectors are used to deliver your enemy’s message, and meant to leave you with the burning anger of having being wronged. They are a sick and deadly tactic invoked by adult children who know no better, have very little empathy with others and have never forgiven those who first used them against them in the same way. And they are very, very effective. The game deals marked cards from stacked decks, hands us loaded dice, and then urges us to gamble. Indulging in an evil way of life opens us up to an inner anarchy which (like all anarchies) eventually turns in on itself - to crave authoritarian rule from the one who most wants that kind of absolute power.

“Those who are their own god will end up consigning themselves to the Hell they built for their enemies.”

Anonymous

19
Aug

seinfieldian chains & not-todo lists

I recently got the fairly well-deserved nickname “the machine”. If you looked at the output on this blog, you’d be forgiven for thinking i don’t have much else to do. Nothing could be further from the truth. If you look here, you’ll see what 40% of my time is taken up with, before any of this. Like Simon and Marcel, i’m a total productivity junkie. I can’t be too efficient. I can feel it lately too - its taking me less and less time to produce results.

Every so often, a set of ideas will bubble to the surface that take you away from the box you live in and help you to think in a more lateral way.

On Lifehacker, Brian Isaac explains the productivity advice he got from Jerry Seinfield.

He said the way to be a better comic was to create better jokes and the way to create better jokes was to write every day. But his advice was better than that. He had a gem of a leverage technique he used on himself and you can use it to motivate yourself - even when you don’t feel like it. He then revealed a unique calendar system he was using pressure himself to write. Here’s how it worked.

He told me to get a big wall calendar that has a whole year on one page and hang it on a prominent wall. The next step was to get a big red magic marker. He said for each day that I do my task of writing, I get to put a big red X over that day. “After a few days you’ll have a chain. Just keep at it and the chain will grow longer every day. You’ll like seeing that chain, especially when you get a few weeks under your belt. Your only job next is to not break the chain.”

Don’t break the chain.” He said again for emphasis.

Over the years I’ve used his technique in many different areas. I’ve used it for exercise, to learn programming, to learn network administration, to build successful websites and build successful businesses. It works because it isn’t the one-shot pushes that get us where we want to go, it is the consistent daily action that builds extraordinary outcomes. You may have heard “inch by inch anything’s a cinch.” Inch by inch does work if you can move an inch every day.

Daily action builds habits. It gives you practice and will make you an expert in a short time. If you don’t break the chain, you’ll start to spot opportunities you otherwise wouldn’t. Small improvements accumulate into large improvements rapidly because daily action provides “compounding interest.”

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The 2nd brilliantly simple concept is similar to the someday/maybe list - the “not todo” list, which is, as the name suggests, the total opposite of a todo list.  “Not-to-do” lists can be just as effective—often more so—than to-do lists for upgrading performance. The reason is simple: what you don’t do determines what you can do.

Tim Ferriss from Web Worker Daily suggests nine stressful and common habits that entrepreneurs and office workers should strive to eliminate. The idea is to focus on one or two at a time, just as you would with high-priority to-do items.

  1. Do not answer unrecognized phone calls
  2. Do not e-mail first thing in the morning or last thing at night
  3. Do not agree to meetings or calls with no clear agenda or end time
  4. Do not let people ramble—forget “how’s it going?” and embrace “what’s up?”
  5. Do not check e-mail constantly—“batch” and check at set times only
  6. Do not over-communicate with low-profit, high-maintenance customers
  7. Do not work more to fix overwhelm—prioritize
  8. Do not carry a cellphone or Crackberry 24/7, seven days a week—make evenings and/or Saturdays digital leash-free.
  9. Do not expect work to fill a void that non-work relationships and activities should

And as he rightly says,  “it’s hip to focus on getting things done, but it’s only possible once we remove the constant static and distraction. If you have trouble deciding what to do, just focus on not doing to re-focus. Different means, same end. Embrace the anti-Nike: Just don’t do it.”

19
Aug

and you may remain unforgiven

I struggle with forgiveness. Its about the hardest thing you can ever do. I don’t think i’ve ever truly forgiven anyone, and i’m no good at it. I’ve certainly tried, but they just did something else afterwards that meant they had to be forgiven again, which kind of made it pointless in the first place. I’m told forgiving is a continual process that can be life-long.

They tell me forgiveness is like a bank chasing a debtor that can’t pay his/her bill. If you go overdrawn on your credit card or loan, you are sent reminder letters that gradually get more formal as time goes on. Eventually the time comes when you need to be taken to court to collect what you owe. Then the bailiffs arrive at your door and impound your possessions so they can be sold to pay your debt. If you have nothing, then you are made bankrupt. But the debt still remains unpaid, regardless of what you have or don’t have. There’s no point to chasing someone who can’t pay their debt, so the bank effectively writes off the amount as irretrievable because its more expensive to pursue than to suffer the financial loss.

And so, forgiveness in life apparently works the same way, as we can’t take back what we have said or done in the past. An apology goes a long way, but ultimately the debt cannot be repaid. Forgiving the person is writing off their debt and not chasing them anymore for it as its futile, pointless and draining to keep pushing away at something that cannot be realised and costs more than it will repay. The act of forgiving is consciously choosing to abandon the exhausting debt-chasing and striking off what’s owed.

The problem i have with forgiveness is that it’s ongoing, and requires endless effort. Some people just don’t stop racking up debt after debt, and you are forced to keep writing it off to stay sane, even when you didn’t lend to them in the first place. They do it again. And again. Biblically speaking, the answer to the question of how many times you should forgive is “unlimited”, or 70 times 7. So that’s the word from High Command, and i have to do it. More importantly, i need to be willing to do it. Judgment comes from not doing what you are asked to do more than what you have actually done.

Being angry at having been hurt or wrong is not wrong or unhealthy, it is normal. Resentment is bad for you physically and emotionally, and we have to let things go. But i smoulder inside, which you could consider emotional immaturity in some ways. I am forgiven by others, and i’m not perfect myself, so i should forgive. Why do we need to let things go exactly? Its not as if the bank would let me off if i decided not to pay back my £100,000 loan. I should be asked for forgiveness, not offer it freely. Well, at least that’s the belief inside me, right or wrong.

You know what i want? The thing that would satiate my righteous fury and the burning anger of being wronged?

STARTING WITH A FUCKING APOLOGY.

Yep, that’s right. Do that, and you might just be forgiven. How about a little atonement before you are unanimously let off the hook, maybe as a simple courtesy? I want blood spilled and the debt paid back. I can’t help that, as its the way it makes me feel. How about making it up to me? How about showing me the same dignity and respect i would show you, instead of drowning in your own self-pity and defiant fury? That’s the only way to app me from being so offended. But don’t think it gives you any power over me, as hating you doesn’t take any concsious effort or drain me at all. I’m happy to see you rot.

I have no idea how people forgive those who murdered their children or sinned against them so appallingly that the rest of the world thinks they never deserve redemption. I don’t even know how to forgive. But naturally, i looked it up, and got kindly got bought a small book on the subject to help me along.

OK so this is what you are meant to do.

“The first step towards forgiveness is recognise the hurt and be honest with yourself about your feelings.”

Anger can be expressed by going on the attack or being deliberately silent and withdrawn. The hurt done to you can often make your confidence and self-worth plummet. Recognising what you are feeling is more difficult than it sounds.

“The second step in the process of forgiveness is to get a clear view of what really happened.”

You may discover that your initial feelings were an overreaction to the situation, or the standards and expectations were too high. You can either laugh it off as comic or blame somebody. The memories of nnforgiven situations and the feelings associated with them can exacerbate the problem.

“Now that you have a clear understanding of what’s happened and how you feel about it, the next stage is to try and understand the other person’s point of view.”

When you understand, the problem may evaporate. When we blame someone’s actions we treat them as a mature person who is responsible for their actions, right or wrong. It is here that we learn of all that needs to be excused and what it is that needs to be blamed.

Most of us learn how to forgive as children. We learn with with parents and guardians we deeply need. It is the experience of being loved and forgiven that helps us to grow and become loveable people. Buy maybe for some reason you learned that lesson badly in childhood. You do not feel as if love can safely overcome hurt. When something terrible happens and we feel the desire for hate and revenge, all our faith and values are challenged.

Surely there are times when it is wrong to forgive? You may feel it is one thing to forgive injury to yourself but quite different when the event caused hurt to others. What would happen to justice if we all forgave? What happens when an apology is a sarcastic gesture of spite to convey the anger we feel?

Forgiveness is:

  • Granting free pardon for a hurt;
  • Giving up all claim for compensation;
  • Ceasing to feel resentment.

Repentance, which can be as hard as forgiveness, is

  • Accepting a pardon for a hurt;
  • Making any appropriate restitution;
  • Ceasing to feel guilt and shame.

Ahaa, so its a bit like a handshake. I forgive, you repent.

“What if the guilty party doesn’t say ‘I’m sorry’? Can forgiveness work if it is one-sided?”

We may find that we cannot be at peace with someone, but even in war we can love, (wtf?) which means refusing to let ourselves nurse thoughts of hatred. Love can be energetic with moral indignation. Anger is useful when it rescues others or sets us back on our feet, but once it becomes triumphant or places us above others, it is dangerous. As soon as it becomes redundant, unable to change anything for the good, we need to let it go.

Forgiving is not sorting out the past and laying it to rest, it is about re-affirming trust and is a generosity that should be free. It does not mean returning to where you were or letting someone off the hook. Real forgiveness means giving up all claim to compensation. But genuine repentance involves some real attempt to put matters right and it is right for the repenting person to make amends.

Forgiveness is false if it leaves either person feeling morally superior.

One of the most incredible stories i read a few years back is one of the only tales that can move me close to tears - the brutal murder of Sister Maria Laura Mainetti on the 7th June 2000 in the small Italian town of Chiavenna by a bunch of 16 year old goth girls, committed out of “boredom”, and blamed on their infatuation with Marilyn Manson. As they held her down and stabbed her for the 19th time so she finally lost the ability to breathe from choking on her own blood, she looked her murderers in the face and whispered her last words as they hacked at her.

“I forgive you”.

I wish i had 0.01% of her strength and compassion.

19
Aug

walking deeper into eden

Whenever i can, i put everything down and take a walk in the woods to regain my sanity in the peace of nature. I never realised the wonderful significance of this until recently, as its just taken for granted that a little greenery and a breeze helps to clear your head. Where is that a man goes to be at peace? Not just me, but almost all men? They automatically go into the wild, the great outdoors. They don’t sit around talking through their problems or inhabit support groups. And they don’t even realise why.

Because that’s where they came from, and where they belong.

The Bible isn’t a scientific textbook, but its a book i love and adore for its comprehensive narrative about human nature. It’s a spiritual tome comprising thousands of years of human wisdom that illustrates why, not how or when. The story of the Garden of Eden and Adam and Eve’s fall is there to explain who we are, and why. It tells us about human nature, and helps us to understand the individual natures of men and women. As with all parables and tales, it explains simply what happened in the story and then leaves us to think about it more deeply to arrive at the reasons, implications and wisdom inside.

The story is deceptively simple, but when you start to explore and discuss the detail, it is massively complex. I don’t literally believe Adam and Eve were the first humans implanted on the planet at all, in fact i believe we arrived here through Darwinian evolution and the process of natural selection. For me, that was the mechanism of creation, the perfect design that brought the ecosystem we inhabit into being. The Bible answers the questions of who and why. Like many of the books in it, the story of Adam and Eve is allegorical - it explains who we are in the language that the people of the day understood it in.

We’ve all read and remember the story, but i just want to pick out some chosen bits.

Firstly, Adam was created outside the garden, in the wild. His natural environment and familiar territory was the wild, deadly and deserted wilderness. He was brought into the beautiful garden, not born in it. Eve was made directly from a part of Adam. She was an intrinsic piece of him and he needs her. She was his companion and saviour, but was made in a different place - a place of perfection and beauty which meant that she could never understand the draw of the wild. Eve was the finishing touch of the whole world - the very crown of creation, the most beautiful and wonderful jewel of all eternity. She embodied the beauty, mystery and vulnerability of God.

Most interesting in the whole story is the crux of the drama to unfold - our fall from grace. The serpent held a special hatred of womankind, because she bore the image of the heart of God and gave life. He immediately bypassed Adam and went directly for Eve. The most overlooked and most powerful abstract of the Old Testament is about why Eve chose to eat from the Tree of Knowledge of Good & Evil. Its not the reason you expect, for example her curiosity, but something that all women who followed her suffer with.

Eve succumbed because she was convinced God was hiding something from her and she was being lied to. Her fall was due to insecurity, fear and paranoia. The serpent picked on her worst vulnerability and played to her fears to drive her to know what was being hidden from her. Not even the beauty and splendour of all creation and the immediate prescence of God could convince her otherwise. She was easily deceived, wound up in her fears and as a consequence, ended up desiring to control everything around her.

But Adam’s sin was almost worse - he just stood there next to Eve, elbow to elbow, and did nothing. He didn’t fight or intervene. He denied his own nature and gave into his own paralysis. After his collapse, he hid in shame from giving away his strength. Men will hide behind anything to deny their strength, fearing that something bad will happen if they unleash it. The sad truth is that something bad will happen if they don’t.

Creation is unapologetically wild. We do everything we can every day to minimise and avoid risk. Nature loves to stack up the odds before a great victory is won. Men come alive through exploration and are at home in the wild. We’ve lost track of the nature of a man, what a man’s purpose is, and what a man actually is. Men are designed to be dangerous, fiercesome and wild. Man is strength, woman is beauty.

A man’s strength unleashes a woman’s beauty, and vice versa. His strength allows her to be beautiful, and she finds rest in the shadow of that strength. A woman’s femininity arouses a man’s masculinity. Nature built testosterone into male anatomy for a reason. Desire reveals design, and design reveals destiny. A man does not go to a woman to find his strength, he goes to her to offer it. I had to learn this lesson very painfully.

So many women complain about how there do not seem to be any real men left in the world. Well ladies, that’s because you’ve asked them to be women. No man ever dreamt about growing up to be a nice guy, and the favourite word we use with them is “don’t”. If you leave boys alone after taking away their toy weapons, you will consistently see them fashioning weapons out of anything they can find around them.

Women are attracted to the wild man, but as soon as they seduce and obtain him, they set about on a campaign of domestication that ultimately acts to emasculate him. His resistance makes her resent him, but she admires his strength. We put a man in a cage for the same reason we put a lion in a cage - because he is dangerous. But we need men to be dangerous, and to be true to their design. You don’t make anything safe my making it dull, you wield it like a skilled swordsman.

Yes, men also need to be tender. But they need to know when to be strong. Ironically its not a matter of feminine emotional gluttony, more a case of context. Indeed, many girls i know say that the passive behaviour of the men they love often drives them to deliberately start arguments with them, just to stir up that strength because they need and crave it. There are few occasions when you should ever fear a man’s strength or anger - when it is being acted out as unjustified and unwarranted abuse, and when you’re doing something to betray him that would arouse it with good reason.

Masculinity is bestowed from father to son, or through the company of other men. It cannot be learned. Most cultures believe that manhood is attained through ritual and effort. In some African tribes, you are not considered a man until you have killed a lion. By my age 50 years ago, most men had been drilled by national service and killed dozens of others from serving in a war. The nearest we get to that nowadays is a protest march or scrap on the corner of the road outside the pub.

They say every man needs 3 things: a) A battle to fight. A man is fierce, powerful and extremely dangerous. It is his design. There is something fiercesome and wild in the heart of every man. b) An adventure to live. An adventure requires something of us; it puts us to the test, and requires mystery (which is usually too frightening in itself). The trouble is we don’t ever think we’re up to it and so can’t answer our most basic question of whether we are good enough , and c) A beauty to rescue. There is nothing so inspiring to a man as a beautiful woman. Every man dreams of being a hero to the woman he loves, and we take pictures of our gal to keep in our pockets when we are cleaning guns in the trenches.

“The beauty of the female is the root of joy to the female as well as to the male… to desire the enjoying of her own beauty is the obedience of Eve, and to both it is in the lover that the beloved tastes of her own delightfulness.”

C.S. Lewis

Women want to be fought for; to be pursued; to be cherished; to be a priority to someone. They want an adventure to share and be part of; something that is greater than themselves. They want beauty to unveil, truly to be the beauty and to be delighted in. They need to know they are exquisite, exotic and chosen. If a woman is living out their true design they will be valiant, vulnerable and scandalous. They are build to attract and seduce.

Many women hide their beauty in fear or anger, and use it to secure their place in the world - they abuse their power and attack the ones they fear in order to empower themselves. If you don’t wanted to be treated like a sex object, stop acting like one. If you’re obsessed with looks, you’ll be treated as a fake and superficial bimbo. Either way, no man will respect you and every time you’ll be left desolate. If you want to be pursued, you have to let him know he will get their in the end to make him fight. Opening up the jealousy box is a very quick way to see a man’s violently territorial nature in full swing; the key word being “territorial”, which implies ownership of an object. Act like a person, not a thing playing games, and you will be treated as one in return.

You only have to see all the works of art, literature and most dramatically, wars that have been fought for and on behalf of women. Women may live their lives for the men they love, but men worship the female species.

“The naked woman’s body is a portion of eternity too great for the eye of a man.”

William Blake

But their crucial mistake is that they hesitate in fighting for the one they love - the princess they long to rescue just stays in the tower. Men are designed intrinsically to be heroic and give our lives for another as that is what the world needs, but we fail and ask questions before we risk. Life is a matter of risk, and the risk is what gives the magic of the romance. No woman wakes up definitely not wanting to be swept off their feet, and is it that which man does best. Daring, bold and audacious madness is what snares the girl, and commands her.

And if you are male and reading this think its antiquated, anachronistic crap, (or sexist patriarchal rhetoric) then you’re a pussywhipped metrosexual who desperately needs to get a pair of balls . The nature of masculinity is fiercesome and terrifying, and its meant to be that way. When someone threatens a person you love, an animal attacks you, or you are being shot at in a hostile combat area, you get to feel your animalistic nature and all your intellectualising counts for, and means absolutely nothing. You might even spill your latte, god forbid.

We are born into a world already at war and built to fight it in. Be fierce, be wild, be passionate. Explore, build, conquer. This is a man’s purpose, his mission, and his design. Don’t apologise, make excuses or try to make anyone feel more comfortable - let them feel the weight of who you are. This is what man is.

18
Aug

more deadly than the disease

Simon Thomas was a great physician of his time: I remember, that happening one day at Toulouse to meet him at a rich old fellow’s house, who was troubled with weak lungs, and discoursing with his patient about the method of his cure, he told him, that one thing which would be very conducive to it, was to give me such occasion to be pleased with his company, that I might come often to see him, by which means, and by fixing his eyes upon the freshness of my complexion, and his imagination upon the sprightliness and vigor that glowed in my youth, and possessing all his senses with the flourishing age wherein I then was, his habit of body might, peradventure, be amended; but he forgot to say that mine, at the same time, might be made worse.

Michel de Montaigne, “On The Force of Imagination” (1580)

14
Aug

UK’S FASTEST GROWING ROCK ACT ANNOUNCES DEBUT RELEASE

So where have i been? Well, busy, as the short answer. This summer i’m working with Plastic Toys and everyone will get to see the results later in the year for the project i call “Rockstar 2.0″.

In the meantime, this went out today. You’re going to see more and more of this, and fear not, as blogs are on the way soon.

Send Date:13-Aug-2007 15:11

Hill Valley Records announces the eagerly-anticipated release of the debut single from Plastic Toys, “Let Me Feel The Love”…

Let Me Feel The Love marks the moment electro pop became stadium rock with throbbing synths and beats, a hook that Marc Bolan would be proud of and massive, fuzzy guitar riffs.

Entirely self-funded, self-recorded and self-produced, Let Me Feel The Love was mixed by Andy Gray, the highly-acclaimed co-writer of the Channel 4 Big Brother theme tune and mastered in Los Angeles by Tom Baker (Nine Inch Nails, Marilyn Manson, My Chemical Romance).

Available at HMV, Apple iTunes and Amazon, Let Me Feel The Love has already entered the UK Indie chart at number 30.

The follow-up album “For Tonight Only” is due for a November release.

Plastic Toys won ITV’s unsigned band competition by a landslide and were voted into the top 5 unsigned bands by Kerrang! They held the Number One spot on BBC Radio 1’s “One Music” chart for eight weeks.

They are odds-on favourites to win the Orange mobileAct competition to find the UK’s most exciting band and have been invited to play at Germany’s PopKomm festival, Canadian Music Week and as support for Shiny Toy Guns, on tour.

A full-length copy of “Let Me Feel The Love” by Plastic Toys is available for press here:
http://www.plastictoys.co.uk/[removed](8Mb)

The video for “Let Me Feel The Love” can be viewed at the following address:
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=GW6PUZptnHE

You are invited to use the following images of the band and album cover in your publication:
http://www.plastictoys.co.uk/preview/Plastic.Toys.Caravan.300dpi.plastictoys.co.uk.jpg
http://www.plastictoys.co.uk/preview/Plastic.Toys.Green.Alley.72dpi.plastictoys.co.uk.jpg
http://www.plastictoys.co.uk/preview/Plastic.Toys.LTFTL.Artwork.72dpi.plastictoys.co.uk.jpg

Notes for Editors:
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1/. Plastic Toys are an electro-rock band based in Southampton, UK.

2/. Fans can visit the official Plastic Toys website at http://www.plastictoys.co.uk, listen to the album preview on Last.fm at http://www.last.fm/music/Plastic+Toys and the visit the band’s MySpace page for free tickets to shows: http://www.myspace.com/plastictoys

3/. Jon Plastic (front man) & Kitty Brooks (bassist) are available for interview.

Please contact Jonathan at Hill Valley Records on +44 (0) 1962 712026 or email: interview.requests@hillvalleyrecords.com

About Hill Valley Records:

Hill Valley Records is a fully independent record label based in Winchester (UK) specialising in the production and release of cutting edge rock and electro genre artists. For more information, please call Jonathan on +44 (0) 1962 712026 or email release@hillvalleyrecords.com

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11
Aug

13 things that don’t make sense

1. The placebo effect
Don’t try this at home. Several times a day, for several days, you induce pain in someone. You control the pain with morphine until the final day of the experiment, when you replace the morphine with saline solution. Guess what? The saline takes the pain away.

This is the placebo effect: somehow, sometimes, a whole lot of nothing can be very powerful. Except it’s not quite nothing. When Fabrizio Benedetti of the University of Turin in Italy carried out the above experiment, he added a final twist by adding naloxone, a drug that blocks the effects of morphine, to the saline. The shocking result? The pain-relieving power of saline solution disappeared.

So what is going on? Doctors have known about the placebo effect for decades, and the naloxone result seems to show that the placebo effect is somehow biochemical. But apart from that, we simply don’t know.

Benedetti has since shown that a saline placebo can also reduce tremors and muscle stiffness in people with Parkinson’s disease (Nature Neuroscience, vol 7, p 587). He and his team measured the activity of neurons in the patients’ brains as they administered the saline. They found that individual neurons in the subthalamic nucleus (a common target for surgical attempts to relieve Parkinson’s symptoms) began to fire less often when the saline was given, and with fewer “bursts” of firing - another feature associated with Parkinson’s. The neuron activity decreased at the same time as the symptoms improved: the saline was definitely doing something.

We have a lot to learn about what is happening here, Benedetti says, but one thing is clear: the mind can affect the body’s biochemistry. “The relationship between expectation and therapeutic outcome is a wonderful model to understand mind-body interaction,” he says. Researchers now need to identify when and where placebo works. There may be diseases in which it has no effect. There may be a common mechanism in different illnesses. As yet, we just don’t know.

2. The horizon problem
Our universe appears to be unfathomably uniform. Look across space from one edge of the visible universe to the other, and you’ll see that the microwave background radiation filling the cosmos is at the same temperature everywhere. That may not seem surprising until you consider that the two edges are nearly 28 billion light years apart and our universe is only 14 billion years old.

Nothing can travel faster than the speed of light, so there is no way heat radiation could have travelled between the two horizons to even out the hot and cold spots created in the big bang and leave the thermal equilibrium we see now.

This “horizon problem” is a big headache for cosmologists, so big that they have come up with some pretty wild solutions. “Inflation”, for example.

You can solve the horizon problem by having the universe expand ultra-fast for a time, just after the big bang, blowing up by a factor of 1050 in 10-33

seconds. But is that just wishful thinking? “Inflation would be an explanation if it occurred,” says University of Cambridge astronomer Martin Rees. The trouble is that no one knows what could have made that happen.

So, in effect, inflation solves one mystery only to invoke another. A variation in the speed of light could also solve the horizon problem - but this too is impotent in the face of the question “why?” In scientific terms, the uniform temperature of the background radiation remains an anomaly.

“A variation in the speed of light could solve the problem, but this too is impotent in the face of the question ‘why?’”

3. Ultra-energetic cosmic rays
For more than a decade, physicists in Japan have been seeing cosmic rays that should not exist. Cosmic rays are particles - mostly protons but sometimes heavy atomic nuclei - that travel through the universe at close to the speed of light. Some cosmic rays detected on Earth are produced in violent events such as supernovae, but we still don’t know the origins of the highest-energy particles, which are the most energetic particles ever seen in nature. But that’s not the real mystery.

As cosmic-ray particles travel through space, they lose energy in collisions with the low-energy photons that pervade the universe, such as those of the cosmic microwave background radiation. Einstein’s special theory of relativity dictates that any cosmic rays reaching Earth from a source outside our galaxy will have suffered so many energy-shedding collisions that their maximum possible energy is 5 × 1019 electronvolts. This is known as the Greisen-Zatsepin-Kuzmin limit.

Over the past decade, however, the University of Tokyo’s Akeno Giant Air Shower Array - 111 particle detectors spread out over 100 square kilometres - has detected several cosmic rays above the GZK limit. In theory, they can only have come from within our galaxy, avoiding an energy-sapping journey across the cosmos. However, astronomers can find no source for these cosmic rays in our galaxy. So what is going on?

One possibility is that there is something wrong with the Akeno results. Another is that Einstein was wrong. His special theory of relativity says that space is the same in all directions, but what if particles found it easier to move in certain directions? Then the cosmic rays could retain more of their energy, allowing them to beat the GZK limit.

Physicists at the Pierre Auger experiment in Mendoza, Argentina, are now working on this problem. Using 1600 detectors spread over 3000 square kilometres, Auger should be able to determine the energies of incoming cosmic rays and shed more light on the Akeno results.

Alan Watson, an astronomer at the University of Leeds, UK, and spokesman for the Pierre Auger project, is already convinced there is something worth following up here. “I have no doubts that events above 1020 electronvolts exist. There are sufficient examples to convince me,” he says. The question now is, what are they? How many of these particles are coming in, and what direction are they coming from? Until we get that information, there’s no telling how exotic the true explanation could be.

“One possibility is that there is something wrong with the Akeno results. Another is that Einstein was wrong”

4. Belfast homeopathy results
Madeleine Ennis, a pharmacologist at Queen’s University, Belfast, was the scourge of homeopathy. She railed against its claims that a chemical remedy could be diluted to the point where a sample was unlikely to contain a single molecule of anything but water, and yet still have a healing effect. Until, that is, she set out to prove once and for all that homeopathy was bunkum.

In her most recent paper, Ennis describes how her team looked at the effects of ultra-dilute solutions of histamine on human white blood cells involved in inflammation. These “basophils” release histamine when the cells are under attack. Once released, the histamine stops them releasing any more. The study, replicated in four different labs, found that homeopathic solutions - so dilute that they probably didn’t contain a single histamine molecule - worked just like histamine. Ennis might not be happy with the homeopaths’ claims, but she admits that an effect cannot be ruled out.

So how could it happen? Homeopaths prepare their remedies by dissolving things like charcoal, deadly nightshade or spider venom in ethanol, and then diluting this “mother tincture” in water again and again. No matter what the level of dilution, homeopaths claim, the original remedy leaves some kind of imprint on the water molecules. Thus, however dilute the solution becomes, it is still imbued with the properties of the remedy.

You can understand why Ennis remains sceptical. And it remains true that no homeopathic remedy has ever been shown to work in a large randomised placebo-controlled clinical trial. But the Belfast study (Inflammation Research, vol 53, p 181) suggests that something is going on. “We are,” Ennis says in her paper, “unable to explain our findings and are reporting them to encourage others to investigate this phenomenon.” If the results turn out to be real, she says, the implications are profound: we may have to rewrite physics and chemistry.

5. Dark matter
Take our best understanding of gravity, apply it to the way galaxies spin, and you’ll quickly see the problem: the galaxies should be falling apart. Galactic matter orbits around a central point because its mutual gravitational attraction creates centripetal forces. But there is not enough mass in the galaxies to produce the observed spin.

Vera Rubin, an astronomer working at the Carnegie Institution’s department of terrestrial magnetism in Washington DC, spotted this anomaly in the late 1970s. The best response from physicists was to suggest there is more stuff out there than we can see. The trouble was, nobody could explain what this “dark matter” was.

And they still can’t. Although researchers have made many suggestions about what kind of particles might make up dark matter, there is no consensus. It’s an embarrassing hole in our understanding. Astronomical observations suggest that dark matter must make up about 90 per cent of the mass in the universe, yet we are astonishingly ignorant what that 90 per cent is.

Maybe we can’t work out what dark matter is because it doesn’t actually exist. That’s certainly the way Rubin would like it to turn out. “If I could have my pick, I would like to learn that Newton’s laws must be modified in order to correctly describe gravitational interactions at large distances,” she says. “That’s more appealing than a universe filled with a new kind of sub-nuclear particle.”

“If the results turn out to be real, the implications are profound. We may have to rewrite physics and chemistry”

6. Viking’s methane
July 20th, 1976. Gilbert Levin is on the edge of his seat. Millions of kilometres away on Mars, the Viking landers have scooped up some soil and mixed it with carbon-14-labelled nutrients. The mission’s scientists have all agreed that if Levin’s instruments on board the landers detect emissions of carbon-14-containing methane from the soil, then there must be life on Mars.

Viking reports a positive result. Something is ingesting the nutrients, metabolising them, and then belching out gas laced with carbon-14.
So why no party?

Because another instrument, designed to identify organic molecules considered essential signs of life, found nothing. Almost all the mission scientists erred on the side of caution and declared Viking’s discovery a false positive. But was it?

The arguments continue to rage, but results from NASA’s latest rovers show that the surface of Mars was almost certainly wet in the past and therefore hospitable to life. And there is plenty more evidence where that came from, Levin says. “Every mission to Mars has produced evidence supporting my conclusion. None has contradicted it.”

Levin stands by his claim, and he is no longer alone. Joe Miller, a cell biologist at the University of Southern California in Los Angeles, has re-analysed the data and he thinks that the emissions show evidence of a circadian cycle. That is highly suggestive of life.

Levin is petitioning ESA and NASA to fly a modified version of his mission to look for “chiral” molecules. These come in left or right-handed versions: they are mirror images of each other. While biological processes tend to produce molecules that favour one chirality over the other, non-living processes create left and right-handed versions in equal numbers. If a future mission to Mars were to find that Martian “metabolism” also prefers one chiral form of a molecule to the other, that would be the best indication yet of life on Mars.

“Something on Mars is ingesting nutrients, metabolising them and then belching out radioactive methane”

7. Tetraneutrons
Four years ago, a particle accelerator in France detected six particles that should not exist. They are called tetraneutrons: four neutrons that are bound together in a way that defies the laws of physics.

Francisco Miguel Marquès and colleagues at the Ganil accelerator in Caen are now gearing up to do it again. If they succeed, these clusters may oblige us to rethink the forces that hold atomic nuclei together.

The team fired beryllium nuclei at a small carbon target and analysed the debris that shot into surrounding particle detectors. They expected to see evidence for four separate neutrons hitting their detectors. Instead the Ganil team found just one flash of light in one detector. And the energy of this flash suggested that four neutrons were arriving together at the detector. Of course, their finding could have been an accident: four neutrons might just have arrived in the same place at the same time by coincidence. But that’s ridiculously improbable.

Not as improbable as tetraneutrons, some might say, because in the standard model of particle physics tetraneutrons simply can’t exist. According to the Pauli exclusion principle, not even two protons or neutrons in the same system can have identical quantum properties. In fact, the strong nuclear force that would hold them together is tuned in such a way that it can’t even hold two lone neutrons together, let alone four. Marquès and his team were so bemused by their result that they buried the data in a research paper that was ostensibly about the possibility of finding tetraneutrons in the future (Physical Review C, vol 65, p 44006).

And there are still more compelling reasons to doubt the existence of tetraneutrons. If you tweak the laws of physics to allow four neutrons to bind together, all kinds of chaos ensues (Journal of Physics G, vol 29, L9). It would mean that the mix of elements formed after the big bang was inconsistent with what we now observe and, even worse, the elements formed would have quickly become far too heavy for the cosmos to cope. “Maybe the universe would have collapsed before it had any chance to expand,” says Natalia Timofeyuk, a theorist at the University of Surrey in Guildford, UK.

There are, however, a couple of holes in this reasoning. Established theory does allow the tetraneutron to exist - though only as a ridiculously short-lived particle. “This could be a reason for four neutrons hitting the Ganil detectors simultaneously,” Timofeyuk says. And there is other evidence that supports the idea of matter composed of multiple neutrons: neutron stars. These bodies, which contain an enormous number of bound neutrons, suggest that as yet unexplained forces come into play when neutrons gather en masse.

8. The Pioneer anomaly
This is a tale of two spacecraft. Pioneer 10 was launched in 1972; Pioneer 11 a year later. By now both craft should be drifting off into deep space with no one watching. However, their trajectories have proved far too fascinating to ignore.

That’s because something has been pulling - or pushing - on them, causing them to speed up. The resulting acceleration is tiny, less than a nanometre per second per second. That’s equivalent to just one ten-billionth of the gravity at Earth’s surface, but it is enough to have shifted Pioneer 10 some 400,000 kilometres off track. NASA lost touch with Pioneer 11 in 1995, but up to that point it was experiencing exactly the same deviation as its sister probe. So what is causing it?

Nobody knows. Some possible explanations have already been ruled out, including software errors, the solar wind or a fuel leak. If the cause is some gravitational effect, it is not one we know anything about. In fact, physicists are so completely at a loss that some have resorted to linking this mystery with other inexplicable phenomena.

Bruce Bassett of the University of Portsmouth, UK, has suggested that the Pioneer conundrum might have something to do with variations in alpha, the fine structure constant (see “Not so constant constants”, page 37). Others have talked about it as arising from dark matter - but since we don’t know what dark matter is, that doesn’t help much either. “This is all so maddeningly intriguing,” says Michael Martin Nieto of the Los Alamos National Laboratory. “We only have proposals, none of which has been demonstrated.”

Nieto has called for a new analysis of the early trajectory data from the craft, which he says might yield fresh clues. But to get to the bottom of the problem what scientists really need is a mission designed specifically to test unusual gravitational effects in the outer reaches of the solar system. Such a probe would cost between $300 million and $500 million and could piggyback on a future mission to the outer reaches of the solar system (www.arxiv.org/gr-qc/0411077).

“An explanation will be found eventually,” Nieto says. “Of course I hope it is due to new physics - how stupendous that would be. But once a physicist starts working on the basis of hope he is heading for a fall.” Disappointing as it may seem, Nieto thinks the explanation for the Pioneer anomaly will eventually be found in some mundane effect, such as an unnoticed source of heat on board the craft.

9. Dark energy
It is one of the most famous, and most embarrassing, problems in physics. In 1998, astronomers discovered that the universe is expanding at ever faster speeds. It’s an effect still searching for a cause - until then, everyone thought the universe’s expansion was slowing down after the big bang. “Theorists are still floundering around, looking for a sensible explanation,” says cosmologist Katherine Freese of the University of Michigan, Ann Arbor. “We’re all hoping that upcoming observations of supernovae, of clusters of galaxies and so on will give us more clues.”

One suggestion is that some property of empty space is responsible - cosmologists call it dark energy. But all attempts to pin it down have fallen woefully short. It’s also possible that Einstein’s theory of general relativity may need to be tweaked when applied to the very largest scales of the universe. “The field is still wide open,” Freese says.

10. The Kuiper cliff
If you travel out to the far edge of the solar system, into the frigid wastes beyond Pluto, you’ll see something strange. Suddenly, after passing through the Kuiper belt, a region of space teeming with icy rocks, there’s nothing.

Astronomers call this boundary the Kuiper cliff, because the density of space rocks drops off so steeply. What caused it? The only answer seems to be a 10th planet. We’re not talking about Quaoar or Sedna: this is a massive object, as big as Earth or Mars, that has swept the area clean of debris.

The evidence for the existence of “Planet X” is compelling, says Alan Stern, an astronomer at the Southwest Research Institute in Boulder, Colorado. But although calculations show that such a body could account for the Kuiper cliff (Icarus, vol 160, p 32), no one has ever seen this fabled 10th planet.

There’s a good reason for that. The Kuiper belt is just too far away for us to get a decent view. We need to get out there and have a look before we can say anything about the region. And that won’t be possible for another decade, at least. NASA’s New Horizons probe, which will head out to Pluto and the Kuiper belt, is scheduled for launch in January 2006. It won’t reach Pluto until 2015, so if you are looking for an explanation of the vast, empty gulf of the Kuiper cliff, watch this space.

11. The Wow signal
It was 37 seconds long and came from outer space. On 15 August 1977 it caused astronomer Jerry Ehman, then of Ohio State University in Columbus, to scrawl “Wow!” on the printout from Big Ear, Ohio State’s radio telescope in Delaware. And 28 years later no one knows what created the signal. “I am still waiting for a definitive explanation that makes sense,” Ehman says.

Coming from the direction of Sagittarius, the pulse of radiation was confined to a narrow range of radio frequencies around 1420 megahertz. This frequency is in a part of the radio spectrum in which all transmissions are prohibited by international agreement. Natural sources of radiation, such as the thermal emissions from planets, usually cover a much broader sweep of frequencies. So what caused it?

The nearest star in that direction is 220 light years away. If that is where is came from, it would have had to be a pretty powerful astronomical event - or an advanced alien civilisation using an astonishingly large and powerful transmitter.

The fact that hundreds of sweeps over the same patch of sky have found nothing like the Wow signal doesn’t mean it’s not aliens. When you consider the fact that the Big Ear telescope covers only one-millionth of the sky at any time, and an alien transmitter would also likely beam out over the same fraction of sky, the chances of spotting the signal again are remote, to say the least.

Others think there must be a mundane explanation. Dan Wertheimer, chief scientist for the SETI@home project, says the Wow signal was almost certainly pollution: radio-frequency interference from Earth-based transmissions. “We’ve seen many signals like this, and these sorts of signals have always turned out to be interference,” he says. The debate continues.

“It was either a powerful astronomical event - or an advanced alien civilisation beaming out a signal”

12. Not-so-constant constants
In 1997 astronomer John Webb and his team at the University of New South Wales in Sydney analysed the light reaching Earth from distant quasars. On its 12-billion-year journey, the light had passed through interstellar clouds of metals such as iron, nickel and chromium, and the researchers found these atoms had absorbed some of the photons of quasar light - but not the ones they were expecting.

If the observations are correct, the only vaguely reasonable explanation is that a constant of physics called the fine structure constant, or alpha, had a different value at the time the light passed through the clouds.

But that’s heresy. Alpha is an extremely important constant that determines how light interacts with matter - and it shouldn’t be able to change. Its value depends on, among other things, the charge on the electron, the speed of light and Planck’s constant. Could one of these really have changed?

No one in physics wanted to believe the measurements. Webb and his team have been trying for years to find an error in their results. But so far they have failed.

Webb’s are not the only results that suggest something is missing from our understanding of alpha. A recent analysis of the only known natural nuclear reactor, which was active nearly 2 billion years ago at what is now Oklo in Gabon, also suggests something about light’s interaction with matter has changed.

The ratio of certain radioactive isotopes produced within such a reactor depends on alpha, and so looking at the fission products left behind in the ground at Oklo provides a way to work out the value of the constant at the time of their formation. Using this method, Steve Lamoreaux and his colleagues at the Los Alamos National Laboratory in New Mexico suggest that alpha may have decreased by more than 4 per cent since Oklo started up (Physical Review D, vol 69, p 121701).

There are gainsayers who still dispute any change in alpha. Patrick Petitjean, an astronomer at the Institute of Astrophysics in Paris, led a team that analysed quasar light picked up by the Very Large Telescope (VLT) in Chile and found no evidence that alpha has changed. But Webb, who is now looking at the VLT measurements, says that they require a more complex analysis than Petitjean’s team has carried out. Webb’s group is working on that now, and may be in a position to declare the anomaly resolved - or not - later this year.

“It’s difficult to say how long it’s going to take,” says team member Michael Murphy of the University of Cambridge. “The more we look at these new data, the more difficulties we see.” But whatever the answer, the work will still be valuable. An analysis of the way light passes through distant molecular clouds will reveal more about how the elements were produced early in the universe’s history.

13. Cold fusion
After 16 years, it’s back. In fact, cold fusion never really went away. Over a 10-year period from 1989, US navy labs ran more than 200 experiments to investigate whether nuclear reactions generating more energy than they consume - supposedly only possible inside stars - can occur at room temperature. Numerous researchers have since pronounced themselves believers.

With controllable cold fusion, many of the world’s energy problems would melt away: no wonder the US Department of Energy is interested. In December, after a lengthy review of the evidence, it said it was open to receiving proposals for new cold fusion experiments.

That’s quite a turnaround. The DoE’s first report on the subject, published 15 years ago, concluded that the original cold fusion results, produced by Martin Fleischmann and Stanley Pons of the University of Utah and unveiled at a press conference in 1989, were impossible to reproduce, and thus probably false.

The basic claim of cold fusion is that dunking palladium electrodes into heavy water - in which oxygen is combined with the hydrogen isotope deuterium - can release a large amount of energy. Placing a voltage across the electrodes supposedly allows deuterium nuclei to move into palladium’s molecular lattice, enabling them to overcome their natural repulsion and fuse together, releasing a blast of energy. The snag is that fusion at room temperature is deemed impossible by every accepted scientific theory.

“Cold fusion would make the world’s energy problems melt away. No wonder the Department of Energy is interested”

That doesn’t matter, according to David Nagel, an engineer at George Washington University in Washington DC. Superconductors took 40 years to explain, he points out, so there’s no reason to dismiss cold fusion. “The experimental case is bulletproof,” he says. “You can’t make it go away.”

11
Aug

courtney does the math

Courtney Love gave a very prophetic speech to the Digital Hollywood online entertainment conference in New York on May 16 2000. The transcript in itself is fascinating reading and opens up the world of the music industry, and is more relevant today than it was then.

If this type of thing interests you, you might also want to check out what the nerds of Slashdot came up with when discussing the online business model for a band.

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Today I want to talk about piracy and music. What is piracy? Piracy is the act of stealing an artist’s work without any intention of paying for it. I’m not talking about Napster-type software.

I’m talking about major label recording contracts.

I want to start with a story about rock bands and record companies, and do some recording-contract math:

This story is about a bidding-war band that gets a huge deal with a 20 percent royalty rate and a million-dollar advance. (No bidding-war band ever got a 20 percent royalty, but whatever.) This is my “funny” math based on some reality and I just want to qualify it by saying I’m positive it’s better math than what Edgar Bronfman Jr. [the president and CEO of Seagram, which owns Polygram] would provide.

What happens to that million dollars?

They spend half a million to record their album. That leaves the band with $500,000. They pay $100,000 to their manager for 20 percent commission. They pay $25,000 each to their lawyer and business manager.

That leaves $350,000 for the four band members to split. After $170,000 in taxes, there’s $180,000 left. That comes out to $45,000 per person.

That’s $45,000 to live on for a year until the record gets released.

The record is a big hit and sells a million copies. (How a bidding-war band sells a million copies of its debut record is another rant entirely, but it’s based on any basic civics-class knowledge that any of us have about cartels. Put simply, the antitrust laws in this country are basically a joke, protecting us just enough to not have to re-name our park service the Phillip Morris National Park Service.)

So, this band releases two singles and makes two videos. The two videos cost a million dollars to make and 50 percent of the video production costs are recouped out of the band’s royalties.

The band gets $200,000 in tour support, which is 100 percent recoupable.

The record company spends $300,000 on independent radio promotion. You have to pay independent promotion to get your song on the radio; independent promotion is a system where the record companies use middlemen so they can pretend not to know that radio stations — the unified broadcast system — are getting paid to play their records.

All of those independent promotion costs are charged to the band.

Since the original million-dollar advance is also recoupable, the band owes $2 million to the record company.

If all of the million records are sold at full price with no discounts or record clubs, the band earns $2 million in royalties, since their 20 percent royalty works out to $2 a record.

Two million dollars in royalties minus $2 million in recoupable expenses equals … zero!

How much does the record company make?

They grossed $11 million.

It costs $500,000 to manufacture the CDs and they advanced the band $1 million. Plus there were $1 million in video costs, $300,000 in radio promotion and $200,000 in tour support.

The company also paid $750,000 in music publishing royalties.

They spent $2.2 million on marketing. That’s mostly retail advertising, but marketing also pays for those huge posters of Marilyn Manson in Times Square and the street scouts who drive around in vans handing out black Korn T-shirts and backwards baseball caps. Not to mention trips to Scores and cash for tips for all and sundry.

Add it up and the record company has spent about $4.4 million.

So their profit is $6.6 million; the band may as well be working at a 7-Eleven.

Of course, they had fun. Hearing yourself on the radio, selling records, getting new fans and being on TV is great, but now the band doesn’t have enough money to pay the rent and nobody has any credit.

Worst of all, after all this, the band owns none of its work … they can pay the mortgage forever but they’ll never own the house. Like I said: Sharecropping. Our media says, “Boo hoo, poor pop stars, they had a nice ride. Fuck them for speaking up”; but I say this dialogue is imperative. And cynical media people, who are more fascinated with celebrity than most celebrities, need to reacquaint themselves with their value systems.

When you look at the legal line on a CD, it says copyright 1976 Atlantic Records or copyright 1996 RCA Records. When you look at a book, though, it’ll say something like copyright 1999 Susan Faludi, or David Foster Wallace. Authors own their books and license them to publishers. When the contract runs out, writers gets their books back. But record companies own our copyrights forever.

The system’s set up so almost nobody gets paid.

Recording Industry Association of America (RIAA)

Last November, a Congressional aide named Mitch Glazier, with the support of the RIAA, added a “technical amendment” to a bill that defined recorded music as “works for hire” under the 1978 Copyright Act.

He did this after all the hearings on the bill were over. By the time artists found out about the change, it was too late. The bill was on its way to the White House for the president’s signature.

That subtle change in copyright law will add billions of dollars to record company bank accounts over the next few years — billions of dollars that rightfully should have been paid to artists. A “work for hire” is now owned in perpetuity by the record company.

Under the 1978 Copyright Act, artists could reclaim the copyrights on their work after 35 years. If you wrote and recorded “Everybody Hurts,” you at least got it back to as a family legacy after 35 years. But now, because of this corrupt little pisher, “Everybody Hurts” never gets returned to your family, and can now be sold to the highest bidder.

Over the years record companies have tried to put “work for hire” provisions in their contracts, and Mr. Glazier claims that the “work for hire” only “codified” a standard industry practice. But copyright laws didn’t identify sound recordings as being eligible to be called “works for hire,” so those contracts didn’t mean anything. Until now.

Writing and recording “Hey Jude” is now the same thing as writing an English textbook, writing standardized tests, translating a novel from one language to another or making a map. These are the types of things addressed in the “work for hire” act. And writing a standardized test is a work for hire. Not making a record.

So an assistant substantially altered a major law when he only had the authority to make spelling corrections. That’s not what I learned about how government works in my high school civics class.

Three months later, the RIAA hired Mr. Glazier to become its top lobbyist at a salary that was obviously much greater than the one he had as the spelling corrector guy.

The RIAA tries to argue that this change was necessary because of a provision in the bill that musicians supported. That provision prevents anyone from registering a famous person’s name as a Web address without that person’s permission. That’s great. I own my name, and should be able to do what I want with my name.

But the bill also created an exception that allows a company to take a person’s name for a Web address if they create a work for hire. Which means a record company would be allowed to own your Web site when you record your “work for hire” album. Like I said: Sharecropping.

Although I’ve never met any one at a record company who “believed in the Internet,” they’ve all been trying to cover their asses by securing everyone’s digital rights. Not that they know what to do with them. Go to a major label-owned band site. Give me a dollar for every time you see an annoying “under construction” sign. I used to pester Geffen (when it was a label) to do a better job. I was totally ignored for two years, until I got my band name back. The Goo Goo Dolls are struggling to gain control of their domain name from Warner Bros., who claim they own the name because they set up a shitty promotional Web site for the band.

Orrin Hatch, songwriter and Republican senator from Utah, seems to be the only person in Washington with a progressive view of copyright law. One lobbyist says that there’s no one in the House with a similar view and that “this would have never happened if Sonny Bono was still alive.”

By the way, which bill do you think the recording industry used for this amendment?

The Record Company Redefinition Act? No. The Music Copyright Act? No. The Work for Hire Authorship Act? No.

How about the Satellite Home Viewing Act of 1999?

Stealing our copyright reversions in the dead of night while no one was looking, and with no hearings held, is piracy.

It’s piracy when the RIAA lobbies to change the bankruptcy law to make it more difficult for musicians to declare bankruptcy. Some musicians have declared bankruptcy to free themselves from truly evil contracts. TLC declared bankruptcy after they received less than 2 percent of the $175 million earned by their CD sales. That was about 40 times less than the profit that was divided among their management, production and record companies.

Toni Braxton also declared bankruptcy in 1998. She sold $188 million worth of CDs, but she was broke because of a terrible recording contract that paid her less than 35 cents per album. Bankruptcy can be an artist’s only defense against a truly horrible deal and the RIAA wants to take it away.

Artists want to believe that we can make lots of money if we’re successful. But there are hundreds of stories about artists in their 60s and 70s who are broke because they never made a dime from their hit records. And real success is still a long shot for a new artist today. Of the 32,000 new releases each year, only 250 sell more than 10,000 copies. And less than 30 go platinum.

The four major record corporations fund the RIAA. These companies are rich and obviously well-represented. Recording artists and musicians don’t really have the money to compete. The 273,000 working musicians in America make about $30,000 a year. Only 15 percent of American Federation of Musicians members work steadily in music.

But the music industry is a $40 billion-a-year business. One-third of that revenue comes from the United States. The annual sales of cassettes, CDs and video are larger than the gross national product of 80 countries. Americans have more CD players, radios and VCRs than we have bathtubs.

Story after story gets told about artists — some of them in their 60s and 70s, some of them authors of huge successful songs that we all enjoy, use and sing — living in total poverty, never having been paid anything. Not even having access to a union or to basic health care. Artists who have generated billions of dollars for an industry die broke and un-cared for.

And they’re not actors or participators. They’re the rightful owners, originators and performers of original compositions.

This is piracy.

This opinion is one I really haven’t formed yet, so as I speak about Napster now, please understand that I’m not totally informed. I will be the first in line to file a class action suit to protect my copyrights if Napster or even the far more advanced Gnutella doesn’t work with us to protect us. I’m on [Metallica drummer] Lars Ulrich’s side, in other words, and I feel really badly for him that he doesn’t know how to condense his case down to a sound-bite that sounds more reasonable than the one I saw today.

I also think Metallica is being given too much grief. It’s anti-artist, for one thing. An artist speaks up and the artist gets squashed: Sharecropping. Don’t get above your station, kid. It’s not piracy when kids swap music over the Internet using Napster or Gnutella or Freenet or iMesh or beaming their CDs into a My.MP3.com or MyPlay.com music locker. It’s piracy when those guys that run those companies make side deals with the cartel lawyers and label heads so that they can be “the labels’ friend,” and not the artists’.

Recording artists have essentially been giving their music away for free under the old system, so new technology that exposes our music to a larger audience can only be a good thing. Why aren’t these companies working with us to create some peace?

There were a billion music downloads last year, but music sales are up. Where’s the evidence that downloads hurt business? Downloads are creating more demand.

Why aren’t record companies embracing this great opportunity? Why aren’t they trying to talk to the kids passing compilations around to learn what they like? Why is the RIAA suing the companies that are stimulating this new demand? What’s the point of going after people swapping cruddy-sounding MP3s? Cash! Cash they have no intention of passing onto us, the writers of their profits.

At this point the “record collector” geniuses who use Napster don’t have the coolest most arcane selection anyway, unless you’re into techno. Hardly any pre-1982 REM fans, no ’60s punk, even the Alan Parsons Project was underrepresented when I tried to find some Napster buddies. For the most part, it was college boy rawk without a lot of imagination. Maybe that’s the demographic that cares — and in that case, My Bloody Valentine and Bert Jansch aren’t going to get screwed just yet. There’s still time to negotiate.

Somewhere along the way, record companies figured out that it’s a lot more profitable to control the distribution system than it is to nurture artists. And since the companies didn’t have any real competition, artists had no other place to go. Record companies controlled the promotion and marketing; only they had the ability to get lots of radio play, and get records into all the big chain store. That power put them above both the artists and the audience. They own the plantation.

Being the gatekeeper was the most profitable place to be, but now we’re in a world half without gates. The Internet allows artists to communicate directly with their audiences; we don’t have to depend solely on an inefficient system where the record company promotes our records to radio, press or retail and then sits back and hopes fans find out about our music.

Record companies don’t understand the intimacy between artists and their fans. They put records on the radio and buy some advertising and hope for the best. Digital distribution gives everyone worldwide, instant access to music.

And filters are replacing gatekeepers. In a world where we can get anything we want, whenever we want it, how does a company create value? By filtering. In a world without friction, the only friction people value is editing. A filter is valuable when it understands the needs of both artists and the public. New companies should be conduits between musicians and their fans.

Right now the only way you can get music is by shelling out $17. In a world where music costs a nickel, an artist can “sell” 100 million copies instead of just a million.

The present system keeps artists from finding an audience because it has too many artificial scarcities: limited radio promotion, limited bin space in stores and a limited number of spots on the record company roster.

The digital world has no scarcities. There are countless ways to reach an audience. Radio is no longer the only place to hear a new song. And tiny mall record stores aren’t the only place to buy a new CD.

Now artists have options. We don’t have to work with major labels anymore, because the digital economy is creating new ways to distribute and market music. And the free ones amongst us aren’t going to. That means the slave class, which I represent, has to find ways to get out of our deals. This didn’t really matter before, and that’s why we all stayed.

I want my seven-year contract law California labor code case to mean something to other artists. (Universal Records sues me because I leave because my employment is up, but they say a recording contract is not a personal contract; because the recording industry — who, we have established, are excellent lobbyists, getting, as they did, a clerk to disallow Don Henley or Tom Petty the right to give their copyrights to their families — in California, in 1987, lobbied to pass an amendment that nullified recording contracts as personal contracts, sort of. Maybe. Kind of. A little bit. And again, in the dead of night, succeeded.)

That’s why I’m willing to do it with a sword in my teeth. I expect I’ll be ignored or ostracized following this lawsuit. I expect that the treatment you’re seeing Lars Ulrich get now will quadruple for me. Cool. At least I’ll serve a purpose. I’m an artist and a good artist, I think, but I’m not that artist that has to play all the time, and thus has to get fucked. Maybe my laziness and self-destructive streak will finally pay off and serve a community desperately in need of it. They can’t torture me like they could Lucinda Williams.

You funny dot-communists. Get your shit together, you annoying sucka VCs

I want to work with people who believe in music and art and passion. And I’m just the tip of the iceberg. I’m leaving the major label system and there are hundreds of artists who are going to follow me. There’s an unbelievable opportunity for new companies that dare to get it right.

How can anyone defend the current system when it fails to deliver music to so many potential fans? That only expects of itself a “5 percent success rate” a year? The status quo gives us a boring culture. In a society of over 300 million people, only 30 new artists a year sell a million records. By any measure, that’s a huge failure.

Maybe each fan will spend less money, but maybe each artist will have a better chance of making a living. Maybe our culture will get more interesting than the one currently owned by Time Warner. I’m not crazy. Ask yourself, are any of you somehow connected to Time Warner media? I think there are a lot of yeses to that and I’d have to say that in that case president McKinley truly failed to bust any trusts. Maybe we can remedy that now.

Artists will make that compromise if it means we can connect with hundreds of millions of fans instead of the hundreds of thousands that we have now. Especially if we lose all the crap that goes with success under the current system. I’m willing, right now, to leave half of these trappings — fuck it, all these trappings — at the door to have a pure artist experience. They cosset us with trappings to shut us up. That way when we say “sharecropper!” you can point to my free suit and say “Shut up pop star.”

Here, take my Prada pants. Fuck it. Let us do our real jobs. And those of us addicted to celebrity because we have nothing else to give will fade away. And those of us addicted to celebrity because it was there will find a better, purer way to live.

Since I’ve basically been giving my music away for free under the old system, I’m not afraid of wireless, MP3 files or any of the other threats to my copyrights. Anything that makes my music more available to more people is great. MP3 files sound cruddy, but a well-made album sounds great. And I don’t care what anyone says about digital recordings. At this point they are good for dance music, but try listening to a warm guitar tone on them. They suck for what I do.

Record companies are terrified of anything that challenges their control of distribution. This is the business that insisted that CDs be sold in incredibly wasteful 6-by-12 inch long boxes just because no one thought you could change the bins in a record store.

Let’s not call the major labels “labels.” Let’s call them by their real names: They are the distributors. They’re the only distributors and they exist because of scarcity. Artists pay 95 percent of whatever we make to gatekeepers because we used to need gatekeepers to get our music heard. Because they have a system, and when they decide to spend enough money — all of it recoupable, all of it owed by me — they can occasionally shove things through this system, depending on a lot of arbitrary factors.

The corporate filtering system, which is the system that brought you (in my humble opinion) a piece of crap like “Mambo No. 5″ and didn’t let you hear the brilliant Cat Power record or the amazing new Sleater Kinney record, obviously doesn’t have good taste anyway. But we’ve never paid major label/distributors for their good taste. They’ve never been like Yahoo and provided a filter service.

There were a lot of factors that made a distributor decide to push a recording through the system:

How powerful is management?
Who owes whom a favor?
What independent promoter’s cousin is the drummer?
What part of the fiscal year is the company putting out the record?
Is the royalty rate for the artist so obscenely bad that it’s almost 100 percent profit instead of just 95 percent so that if the record sells, it’s literally a steal?
How much bin space is left over this year?
Was the record already a hit in Europe so that there’s corporate pressure to make it work?
Will the band screw up its live career to play free shows for radio stations?
Does the artist’s song sound enough like someone else that radio stations will play it because it fits the sound of the month?
Did the artist get the song on a film soundtrack so that the movie studio will pay for the video?

These factors affect the decisions that go into the system. Not public taste. All these things are becoming eradicated now. They are gone or on their way out. We don’t need the gatekeepers any more. We just don’t need them.

And if they aren’t going to do for me what I can do for myself with my 19-year-old Webmistress on my own Web site, then they need to get the hell out of my way. [I will] allow millions of people to get my music for nothing if they want and hopefully they’ll be kind enough to leave a tip if they like it.

I still need the old stuff. I still need a producer in the creation of a recording, I still need to get on the radio (which costs a lot of money), I still need bin space for hardware CDs, I still need to provide an opportunity for people without computers to buy the hardware that I make. I still need a lot of this stuff, but I can get these things from a joint venture with a company that serves as a conduit and knows its place. Serving the artist and serving the public: That’s its place.

A new company that gives artists true equity in their work can take over the world, kick ass and make a lot of money. We’re inspired by how people get paid in the new economy. Many visual artists and software and hardware designers have real ownership of their work.

I have a 14-year-old niece. She used to want to be a rock star. Before that she wanted to be an actress. As of six months ago, what do you think she wants to be when she grows up? What’s the glamorous, emancipating career of choice? Of course, she wants to be a Web designer. It’s such a glamorous business!

When you people do business with artists, you have to take a different view of things. We want to be treated with the respect that now goes to Web designers. We’re not Dockers-wearing Intel workers from Portland who know how to “manage our stress.” We don’t understand or want to understand corporate culture.

I feel this obscene gold rush greedgreedgreed vibe that bothers me a lot when I talk to dot-com people about all this. You guys can’t hustle artists that well. At least slick A&R guys know the buzzwords. Don’t try to compete with them. I just laugh at you when you do! Maybe you could a year ago when anything dot-com sounded smarter than the rest of us, but the scam has been uncovered.

The celebrity-for-sale business is about to crash, I hope, and the idea of a sucker VC gifting some company with four floors just because they can “do” “chats” with “Christina” once or twice is ridiculous. I did a chat today, twice. Big damn deal. 200 bucks for the software and some elbow grease and a good back-end coder. Wow. That’s not worth 150 million bucks.

… I mean, yeah, sure it is if you’d like to give it to me.

I know my place. I’m a waiter. I’m in the service industry.

I live on tips. Occasionally, I’m going to get stiffed, but that’s OK. If I work hard and I’m doing good work, I believe that the people who enjoy it are going to want to come directly to me and get my music because it sounds better, since it’s mastered and packaged by me personally. I’m providing an honest, real experience. Period.

When people buy the bootleg T-shirt in the concert parking lot and not the more expensive T-shirt inside the venue, it isn’t to save money. The T-shirt in the parking lot is cheap and badly made, but it’s easier to buy. The bootleggers have a better distribution system. There’s no waiting in line and it only takes two minutes to buy one.

I know that if I can provide my own T-shirt that I designed, that I made, and provide it as quickly or quicker than the bootleggers, people who’ve enjoyed the experience I’ve provided will be happy to shell out a little more money to cover my costs. Especially if they understand this context, and aren’t being shoveled a load of shit about “uppity” artists.

It’s exactly the same with recorded music. The real thing to fear from Napster is its simple and excellent distribution system. No one really prefers a cruddy-sounding Napster MP3 file to the real thing. But it’s really easy to get an MP3 file; and in the middle of Kansas you may never see my record because major distribution is really bad if your record’s not in the charts this week, and even then it takes a couple of weeks to restock the one copy they usually keep on hand.

I also know how many times I have heard a song on the radio that I loved only to buy the record and have the album be a piece of crap. If you’re afraid of your own filler then I bet you’re afraid of Napster. I’m afraid of Napster because I think the major label cartel will get to them before I do.

I’ve made three records. I like them all. I haven’t made filler and they’re all committed pieces of work. I’m not scared of you previewing my record. If you like it enough to have it be a part of your life, I know you’ll come to me to get it, as long as I show you how to get to me, and as long as you know that it’s out.

Most people don’t go into restaurants and stiff waiters, but record labels represent the restaurant that forces the waiters to live on, and sometimes pool, their tips. And they even fight for a bit of their tips.

Music is a service to its consumers, not a product. I live on tips. Giving music away for free is what artists have been doing