Archive for June, 2008

30
Jun

beauty is in the soul, not in the skin

It’s strange that if you take a step back from the TV, you can see that women are marketed to in the same way with everything - you are not enough as you are, but buy our product and you will be. Every fucking magazine is full of gossip, diets, stories of dramatic weight loss and things that have happened in relationships. It grows women up with a false and superficial view of beauty they know subconciously is just wrong, as what is on the surface quickly disappears.

So you make your hair shiny with a nice style, stop eating properly, wear the season’s clothes, slap on a tonne of make-up, shave your legs, whiten your teeth, put on the fake tan, pull in your stomach, set up a cleavage or a short skirt, and act like a WAG. That’s supposed to be the commonly accepted idea of beauty? FUCK THAT.

So i thought it useful to take a look at where beauty comes from, according to some of the widely acknowledged beautiful women of the world. You’ll see they all share something in common, and it’s an appreciation that beauty is radiated outwards from within.

“The best part of beauty is that which no picture can express.”

Sir Francis Bacon

What makes a girl gorgeous is more than her appearance, size and shape. Her personality is her true source of beauty.

“It’s beauty that captures your attention; personality which captures your heart.”

Unknown

“Some beautiful things are more impressive when left imperfect than when too highly finished.”

La Rochefoucauld

This quotation about beauty and personality supports the idea that imperfection can make a woman more attractive – which has been proven by research.

“People are like stained-glass windows. They sparkle and shine when the sun is out, but when the darkness sets in, their true beauty is revealed only if there is a like from within.”

Elisabeth Kubler-Ross

“Charm…it’s sort of a bloom on a woman. If you have it, you don’t need to have anything else; and if you don’t have it, it doesn’t much matter what else you have.”

J.M Barrie

Part of being charming is making others feel accepted, loved, and respected. Charm is a true source of beauty.

“There is a fountain of youth: it is your mind, your talents, the creativity you bring to your life and the lives of people you love. When you learn to tap this source, you will truly have defeated age.”

Sophia Loren

“It has been said that a pretty face is a passport. But it’s not, it’s a visa, and it runs out fast.”

Julie Burchill

Your appearance isn’t a true source of beauty, because it inevitably changes and fades.

“A better self-image doesn’t pay the rent or cook supper or prevent nuclear war. Feeling better about ourselves doesn’t change the world by itself, but it can give us energy to do what we want and to work for change.”

Our Bodies, Ourselves for the New Century

A great self-image not only makes a girl gorgeous, it energizes her to follow her dreams and passions.

“Beauty is how you feel inside, and it reflects in your eyes. It is not something physical.”

Sophia Loren

Feeling good about yourself is the connection between beauty and self-image. The more comfortable you are in your own skin, the more beautiful you are.

“Self-esteem isn’t everything; it’s just that there’s nothing without it.”

Gloria Steinem

“Why hope to live a long life if we’re only going to fill it with self-absorption, body maintenance, and image repair? When we die, do we want people to exclaim, ‘She looked ten years younger,’ or do we want them to say, ‘She lived a great life!’ ”

Unknown

A beautiful woman doesn’t have to choose between living a great life and looking ten years younger – but living a great life can lead to looking ten years younger. Now, that’s beautiful.

Or of course, for some it may look like this:

30
Jun

nothing sweet about gabriella cilmi

God i fancy this girl. I’m hyponotised watching her at Glastonbury. Gabriella Cilmi is an Australian singer-songwriter who really is going places, and is getting it very right. Rufus Hound (i.e Rob Simpson), presenter de la Glastonbury extraordinaire is the man who might just eb able to get me some coffee time with her.

And the amazing bit? She’s 18 (or 16, depending on who you ask) and just moved to London. No, you read that correctly. She might look a lot older, but she’s still a bub. Gabriella, me love you.

And better still, she has a kick-ass website. That’s something rare for a musician, but she’s cracked it.

http://www.gabriellacilmi.com/
http://www.myspace.com/gabriellacilmi

30
Jun

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30
Jun

joel osteen on thoroughbred spiritual dna

Well clearly i haven’t been watching enough Todd Bentley as i woke up in the middle of the night in severe pain, which has meant i am actually unable to walk today because it’s too agonising to bend my right leg. Thankfully with a little Rage Against The Machine i’m coping.

My dad, sis and Marcos have been pushing me to check out Joel Osteen on Sundays nights on Sky, as he’s a very interesting Christian pastor who talks more like a life coach than anything particularly Jesus-ish and leads the largest congregation in the US. And it’s got him in trouble with the fundies (fundamentalists) as he supports all faiths, refuses to teach damnation or quote scripture everywhere and won’t ally himself to a denomination.

Atheists love him, and apparently he gets more letters from them than any other faith. You can’t help but love Joel.

What a guy. I ended up watching a lot of his videos and the amazing part is that he ironically has a huge following amongst Muslims and Hindus. You get past the Southern draaaaaawl quickly.

Enlarging your circle of love (pt 1) - ignore the worship/bible bit for the first 2mins…

“What about people who aren’t like us and don’t have our background? God put the people in your life for a reason. Too many people have their walls up. We make a judgement and we don’t even know the person. What causes us to judge is…pride. We don’t know what we’d do as we’ve never walked in their shoes. We haven’t had the upbringing they had. Some people look down on others that struggle with their weight. You don’t know the battles they face. Some have hang ups because of the way they were raised. They didn’t choose it. We have to get past this thinking of ‘if you’re like me i’ll accept you’. Don’t pre-judge someone because they don’t meet your standards.”

Pt 2 - “There is nothing God dislikes more than being Holier Than Thou. It’s more important to be pure in your heart to God even if you’re imperfect on the outside. We can’t go around shutting people out because they’re not exactly like us. We have to give people a little room while they’re changing. That young lady may be on her last legs.”

Pt 3 - “The mercy we show to others will be the same amount God will show to us. There is too much judgement in this world today. It’s not our job to convert anyone, just to present the truth. I love all people of all faiths as they are all God’s creation. He drew a circle around to shut me out, and i said i’m going to draw a bigger circle around him and shut him in. When you are good to people who don’t deserve it, you melt their cold hardened heart. I bet everyone here has someone in their life they are shutting out.”

And yes, it hit me VERY hard right when it was unexpected and was very challenging considering how judgemental i can be. Sometimes things are presented to you in your life and you think through them and agree, but sometimes they hit you right in the chest and push you. By the end of these i realised i had my head bowed, looking at the floor.

27
Jun

the case against todd bentley’s revival

I finally managed to get my first solid block of sleep for days last night and so feel a little better, even if Zair may have given me his cold. This week has been an amazing whirlwind and left me with so much to do. But i feel the need to slow down temporarily as my brain really can’t be made to operate 24/7.

The big debate in the Church at the moment, and for most Christians, is the so-called “Florida Healing Outpouring” or the “Lakeland Revival” led by the Charismatic Canadian evangelist Todd Bentley and his organisation “Fresh Fire Ministries”. It is being broadcast every night by God TV all around the world, and spreading absolutely everywhere. Bentley is unusual as he is covered in tattoos and piercings, as well as having been a former drug addict that was imprisoned for child molestation. Thousands of people are reporting that they have been miraculously “healed” through faith just from watching it (legs stumps regrowing etc), and up to 15,000 people a night turn up to sing and dance at his religious circus.

One thing is clear - it is great TV. One hell of a TV programme.

For me it’s been mentioned at Acorn and my mum has been a big supporter. I, like many others, have serious doubts. The Church debate is about how genuine this guy is, and whether what is happening is from God or something else. You have to be extremely careful about typecasting the Father, as he really does do things weirdly. An open mind is paramount, although cautiousness and scepticism is necessary (just as with the New Age family of beliefs).

This one is very tricky and not clear at all. It needs immense discernment and wisdom – more than i have. Discernment is the ability to know whether the source of something spiritual is good (i.e. of God) or evil (from His enemy), and/or sometimes, how it is being used by God for what purposes, as He permits temporary bounded evil in certain circumstances.

I have a massive problem with the Charismatic movement in general simply as it’s totally neurotic and sensational crap that can usually be put down to religious crowd hysteria. The idea of human beings barking like dogs, trembling and laughing insanely like they are “drunk” doesn’t strike me as what a God of order and peace would choose to work, even if he always does the unexpected. The order of creation puts humans above animals and to act like a beast is an act of judgement, not a blessing. The “Gifts” of the Holy Spirit they refer to come from a very specific prophecy that was fulfilled in the form of Pentecost – it was a one-off incident.

One of the pastors involved in the “Toronto Blessing” later went on to call it the “Toronto Deception” that was unhealthy and ended in the near-destruction of the community. His letter to the Church is an interesting read.

Bentley’s past is no real issue, as clearly his life has taken an entirely new direction. In fact, scripture reflects that the Father *always* uses unexpected people – David was an adulterer, Moses a murderer, Christ a peasant carpenter, and Paul a genocidal maniac. The fact he is very different is no cause for concern, neither are his tattoos, his MySpace page, general appearance or the mistakes he may have made before. All men are fallible, and it is wise to remember that. Again it brings us to the point of whether the attention is on the “movement” and/or Bentley, or it is on God.

The vast majority of his supporters, and those who defend him, seem only able to repeat what they’ve heard and use the same pseudo-logic to answer very childishly. You can’t hang someone by their crowd, but they’re really not helping by arguing their point badly.

Why Florida, and why do you need a revival?
Why is this sensational madness always in the US, and always with charismatic Christian communities? Again it’s foolish to pre-empt God, but It would seem to me there are far more effective places to bring out an uprising – like Iraq, Darfur or China. God is everywhere, all the time, for all time, and He is not something that needs to be “revived”. Perhaps it’s a clash of words, but i personally cannot see another one of these “movements” being an episode of a 10-part series by the Father to swoop in dramatically to a bunch of rabid Americans. What is this one different? Because it’s on TV.

Hype and confusion
All i see with this is increasing confusion, and a growing train of hype about miracles, wild testimony about all manner of spiritual things going on. The Father i know is one of order, simplicity and peace, who does all things for the long-term, albeit in a very unpredictable manner. Hysterical crowd behaviour, fast-moving chatter without external verification and the kind of reason-less abandon that surrounds this “revival” don’t fit the mould described in scripture. The TV viewers reporting they have been supernaturally “healed” all seem to talk of the show being “addictive” and the warm fuzzy religious feeling drying up after it’s ended. Scripturally, prophecy must always be 100% accurate to be valid, and it seems up to 90% of Bentley and his associates’ is very wrong. Why do we even need Prophecy after Christ?

No medical evidence or testimony
There is a concerted effort from Bentley’s team to publicise that all the evidence and testimonies of “miracles” are officially recorded and given medical verification. To date, none of these have been produced, and media enquiries have been met with delaying and silence. The Placebo Effect and psychosomatic causes can quite easily duplicate these hysterical crowd “healings”. Only time will tell, as it is difficult to criticise on this alone. Tales of “resurrected” children appear to have been exaggerated and subject to Chinese whispers. It is so frighteningly obvious that he is pushing people over when “lays hands” on them.

Egomania and the Todd Effect
The first thing you notice about Bentley’s approach is that he is very shouty and quite aggressive, and although he appears to be self-deprecating and uplifting of Christ, there is some serious egomania at work as he really seems convinced he is God’s messenger (Christ was the very model of humility). Power is the ultimate human weakness and always corrupts. I personally can’t stand that kind of emotive worship and preaching, as many others can’t. Intuitively my own thought is that it is pretence, and i am clearly not alone in thinking that. I have yet to find out whether he is a self-confessed “prophet” or whether he has simply not rejected the label put on him. BAM! No, thanks.

Known associates – Bob Jones/Kansas City movement, Mike Bickle, Paul Cain, William Branham et al
Bentley’s school of thought is derived from a number of very dubious sources, principally the “Latter Rain” movement headed up by William Branham, and a number of self-appointed “prophets” who all seem to have a real fetish about angels and their healing/guiding abilities. They have all been comprehensively exposed in the 1970s by Ernie Gruen. Bob Jones is laughable - a man who had young ladies strip naked before him to receive a prophetic word from him in private, and who claimed Jesus told him when he was in mental asylum he had to kill or forgive people to get his mind back. Each and every one of these men is morally, intellectually and spiritually espousing doctrine that is inconsistent and closer to New Age belief than scripture.

Cold reading techniques
This is how Tarot and psychics pry their revolting trade, and an exceptionally powerful skill of gathering clues from someone from their body language, guessing and observation (it is even more powerful if you’ve seen the psychic before and it’s the 2nd/3rd time, and massive confidence mesmerises those being read). There is a definite process of it going on in a number of his services, without a doubt. It is the opposite of scriptural prophecy. Is there any footage of Bentley being critical, or is he doing what astrologers do and saying generic positive comments that everyone wants to believe about themselves?

Healing without repentance
An old grey friend of mine peacefully pointed out something so very wise about the process of healing in scripture as it is very clear and specific. It is transactional and comes in several parts, but one thing is always constant – genuine repentance must occur beforehand, and healing is God’s response to that quiet repentance. Christ’s mission was to seek out the sinful and bring them to the light, carrying a (metaphorical) sword that divided peoples to make choices. It is like a handshake and you meet Him halfway, but the repentance must be first as a choice and act of will. I cannot see any call to repentance in any of what Bentley is doing, and the people crying and weeping are simply religious hysteria.

Those angel visitations
The most disturbing part of Bentley’s spiritual doctrine is his frank confession in his own blog and book about being “introduced” to an angel named “Emma” by Bob Jones (a corrupt evangelist) who floated above the ground and sprinkled gold dust in a church that culminated in a financial blessing. There are more – for example, another called “Grace”. Angels are very rare. Only 2 have ever given their names. They don’t float. They do not administer healing and are not to be worshipped or appealed to. They always point to Christ. They always appear as men without exception. They do not need to be “introduced” as they are terrifying. This story of “Emma” appears to be very embarrassing for his ministry and the story changes for every account of it that is given.

A quick note on angels:
Believe me, i have met people who claim to have seen angels, most in human form (one undeniably saved the life of my friend when she was 2 miles offshore in the sea and too exhausted to swim back). All of them report the same thing – they were struck dumb with sheer awe and abject *terror*. They can’t draw or recall what they saw even though they can see it in their head, but they are not describing what they see in books or the movies. We’re talking 8-14ft high, violently powerful and extremely intimidating. It’s for that reason the very first thing they say is always “fear not”.

And in case you’re wondering, the evil version also comes in the form of light, but is most commonly seen as wearing dark, ragged grave clothes with ripped flesh interspersed between the threads. Nice.

It’s consistent in being inconsistent
No matter what you see Bentley say or read what his defendants claim, when these ideas, reports, concepts and events are put under scrutiny, the story keeps changing. The openly contradictory answers are worrying – about his mother’s death, his tattooing, who was healed and who wasn’t, what Christ looked like, talk about the “third heaven”, visions of meeting Paul and Abraham (wtf?) whether it’s a money-making episode, and mostly importantly, about those angelic visitations. Again, God is not the author of confusion, as scripture says. Only intervention from man causes that kind of fog.

All the signs and wonders
We live in an age of scientific reasoning where we believe what we can see. Stage magicians dumbfound their audiences each night because of the “wonders” they do, and they are believed even though we know it is not real. Scripture specifically commands that we are *not* to accept signs and wonders as truth, and we are we to test what we see at all times (in fact, it goes one step further to say that evil *will* do such things and to watch out for it). One of the wisest things i have ever heard was one of my old greys pointing out that if evil can inflict suffering (emotional and/or physical, as in the Book of Job), then it can also lift it – which can appear as “healing”. Signs alone are not trustworthy and must be seen in context.

You will know it by the fruits
Scriptural wisdom asserts that the way to discern if anything is good/healthy r bad/evil/unhealthy is to look at what fruit grow from it. Quite a profound thought for anyone, spiritual or not. The true test of whether this “outpouring” is a blessing from God as claimed is in whether it brings people closer to God, makes them stronger in their faith, and to be blunt, how many homeless people are still out there hungry on the street in Lakeland. The biblical commandment is to GO OUT, not go into a building and get healing for free. According to Paul, a Christian is known by one thing – their love. We must wait to see what comes from what is going on over there.

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It’s a sad fact that human beings will believe almost anything if they want it badly enough. We’ll even stubbornly believe what we want regardless of the evidence placed in front of us. There are so many people just desperate to meet God somehow (to be healed mostly), and so angry that He doesn’t crash through into their life automatically without asking (he’s either in your life punishing you or he’s not interested and doesn’t care – make your mind up). I believe we are all born with an intrinsic link to our creator that drives us insane if it’s not connected to Him, and evil revolves around creating counterfeit alternatives to fill this need somehow (e.g. Tarot, astrology, paranormal etc).

There is no question as to whether God is involved, as He always is. He was there in the Nazi concentration camps, and in the twin towers on 9/11. The question for ms is *how* God is involved, and my gut instinct it’s not through Todd Bentley as His chosen prophet. If a person genuinely wants to know Him, He will meet you wherever you are, right there, right then (you can’t escape the Father, ever). Despite being a corrupt blasphemous heresy, He has allowed the Roman Catholic church to continue, and i bet He has also reached out to people in the pews who were being given sermons by a paedophile priest, just because they wanted to know Him. He works in everything and it is not for us to say, but as my mum so rightly says, God will not be mocked, and He will bring Bentley down if he is corrupt.

So there is no doubt that it is igniting debate, making the church study what is truth and what is not (which is wisdom), and ultimately, bringing a lot of people closer to their own spirituality and God Himself. If it is not from God, i find it difficult to reconcile why it would b leading people to Him. But if it does come crashing down, it could be catastrophic for God’s PR when it has been put on such a pedestal. It is not prayer that is spreading this “anointing” across the world, it is television and the Internet.

For me, miracles aren’t some weird unexplainable event. They are a supernatural intervention in a natural system that is governed by natural laws, but they are still observable scientifically if necessary. A violation of the natural laws of physics is an act of science like any other, only differing because we cannot explain it with the knowledge and tools we have. Can God heal? Yes. Will He? Yes. How? We can’t explain it scientifically yet. Does He use strange situations and unexpected people? Yes.

In conclusion, my own opinion is that Bentley is a little too hung up on being Mr Healer to a religiously hysterical crowd and heavily misguided in his doctrine and philosophy that has been passed on by his contemparies . I think time will show that the Father is using him for a purpose other than what he thinks – to bring us to the place where we make choices and meet those who want to be near Him, en masse if necessary. Time will tell if my judgement is right.

In 2 Thessalonians 2:9-12 it is the lack of love of the truth that causes the Father to send a “powerful delusion” so people make their choice and become divided into those mark themselves out to be His and those who say they are not. As was so wisely pointed out to me recently, Christ is a King that rules above all the other kings, not a fucking circus trainer.

Further reading (or just look on YouTube):

http://endtimespropheticwords.wordpress.com/2008/05/26/index-to-all-articles-on-todd-bentley-lakeland-outpouring-florida-revival/

26
Jun

mi6 starts recruiting from the public

Long-term friends of mine will know i have somewhat of a love-hate relationship with the British security services. It seems that MI6 (or SIS - Secret Intelligence Service), who’s motto “Semper Occultis” (”always hidden”) appears to be less and less hidden as the years go on. Since the government stopped denying its existence in the early 90s, SIS is more plural and family-friendly, which has led to them now recruiting openly from the public instead of quietly shoulder-tapping students at Oxford and Cambridge.

3 people i know are now ex-SIS - one who became a vicar, one who was gunned down in Africa, the last one who started a private security company outside London. I’ve known 4 people who’ve been selected, and had to be a referee for 2 during their positive vetting (PV).

So what can you expect? Not a Walter PPK, that’s for sure. SIS officers aren’t “spies”, they are generally “handlers” for informants they recruit to provide intelligence through being paid, manipulated or blackmailed. It’s predominantly a civil servant desk job (along with the crap CS pay grades) as the military ops are handled by a specific division from the SAS/SBS called the “increment”.

From what i understand, training is done at Fort Monkton in Gosport, and involves learning tradecraft and going out to pubs to get random people to give information like their passport numbers. Only your spouse can know what you do (SIS has a very high divorce rate) and if anyone asks, you’re at the British Embassy because you work for the Foreign Office. Other than that, you get to write lots of briefings that no-one really reads, passes on to British companies like BA or BP, or possibly uses to justify a politician’s desire for military action in another country.

Oh, and nobody will ever know what you do or how much effort you put in.

Or you can apply now:
http://www.mi6.gov.uk/output/Page591.html

25
Jun

time for glastonbury again, bitches!

25
Jun

breaking news: women love psychopaths

Tell us something we don’t know.

Bad boys, it seems, really do get all the girls. Women might claim they want caring, thoughtful types but scientists have discovered what they really want – self-obsessed, lying psychopaths.

A study has found that men with the “dark triad” of traits – narcissism, thrill- seeking and deceitfulness – are likely to have a larger number of sexual affairs.

Peter Jonason, of New Mexico University in Las Cruces, believes that these traits may have an innate, genetic component that explains why some men seem unable to stop themselves behaving badly.

The dark triad of traits are the self-obsession of narcissism, the impulsive, thrill-seeking and callous behaviour of psychopaths and the deceitful and exploitative nature of Machiavellianism. “We have some evidence these traits may represent a successful evolutionary strategy,” Dr Jonason told New Scientist magazine.

“Why women really do love self-obsessed psychopaths” (The Independent):
http://www.independent.co.uk/news/science/why-wo…..850007.html

24
Jun

an interlude while you wait…

It’s advisable to ration your daily azcameron as i am in what my therapist describes as a “period of hyper-productivity” and “empire-building”. By the end of July i will have re-created myself almost entirely and rule over a whole series of new ventures, companies and ideas. As my mum so patronisingly puts it, i’m like an excited little boy. I have a feeling the next 6 weeks are going to be the best and most amazing of my life so far.

Miss 3am maintains that Kel going cold on me in March was obviously because of Emma reappearing. This is apparently obvious to everyone except me, as she was perfectly ok with it and i thought she was getting back with her ex off her own backfor her own reasons because she’d been lying about it for ages. So i didn’t connect the two and lashed out, and she didn’t say anything then or afterwards. Now would someone please explain to me how and why you have to ignore almost anything a woman says because she’s feeling something different?

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From: [removed] Mickey Marmite [mailto:removed@live.co.uk]
Sent: 24 June 2008 22:52
To: alex.cameron@digitaltx.tv
Subject: RE: Proud of you

Chain Reactions from a master hypocrite…. A beautiful and honest piece of writing.. I’ve had to look it up for you. ( slavia Collinea at your service) I’ll tell you something else.

You have a gift in your eloquence, and sharing your self exploration and feelings.

And yes, I had warned you! But least you understand about how previous current (Kell) would feel about contact with ex (Emma). In order to maintain ones dignity and appear cool and confident rather than neurotic, jealous , insecure possessive type, a woman has to give the impression of, to quote you, “seeming totally cool with it”.

And the Rockstar 2 Report seems to have gone around the labels, and even to the boss of Terra Firma (VC who bought EMI).

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From: Removed [mailto:first.last@emimusic.com]
Sent: 23 June 2008 15:07
To: alex.cameron@digitaltx.tv
Subject: RE: Rockstar 2.0

Hi Alex
You are welcome!

I read your report some time ago and have two thoughts about it: Very entertaining and very clever!
By the way - I do think Mr Guy Hands have read it too and likes it.

Good luck with the hate and regulations!
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EMI Music International
27 Wrights Lane
London W8 5SW

Best ‘Out of Office’ Automatic Email Replies:

  1. I am currently out of the office at a job interview and will reply to you if I fail to get the position. Please be prepared for my mood.
  2. You are receiving this automatic notification because I am out of the office. If I was in, chances are you wouldn’t have received anything at all.
  3. Sorry to have missed you, but I’m at the doctor’s having my brain and heart removed so I can be promoted to our management team.
  4. I will be unable to delete all the emails you send me until I return from vacation. Please be patient, and your mail will be deleted in the order it was received.
  5. Thank you for your email. Your credit card has been charged $5.99 for the first 10 words and $1.99 for each additional word in your message.
  6. The email server is unable to verify your server connection. Your message has not been delivered. Please restart your computer and try sending again. (The beauty of this is that when you return, you can see who did this over and over and over…)
  7. Thank you for your message, which has been added to a queuing system. You are currently in 352nd place, and can expect to receive a reply in approximately 19 weeks.
  8. Hi, I’m thinking about what you’ve just sent me. Please wait by your PC for my response.
  9. I’ve run away to join a different circus.
  10. I will be out of the office for the next two weeks for medical reasons. When I return, please refer to me as ‘Lucille’ instead of Steve.

And the last word, as always, to Toto.

So you really want me to go through the filter of an electronic piece of software just to tell you in one word you’re a bastard who I’ve known 5-10 years and don’t fancy.

There, done. So much simpler.”

23
Jun

britain on the verge of dictatorshit

No that’s not a spelling error, it’s just another way of writing a word in the essence of how i see it. As Zimbabwe’s opposition leader seeks refuge at a foreign embassy, Phil Hall at The Guardian has written a very interesting article that is alarming. His contention is that what we are seeing in the UK is what others have experienced when their own countries slid into totalitarian or authoritarian rule.

Only the utterly foolish think it can’t happen to us. Just because we haven’t seen it in our lifetime is no reason to be naive. No dictator ever knocked on the door nicely overnight - this kind of thing is a slow slippery slope that’s very comfy and comes in the guise of “security”. As Phil writes, “Perhaps those of us who have lived for a time under dictatorships can spot some of the warning signs:”

  • Inconvenient elections are avoided in the name of getting on with the job.
  • Leaders of the opposition are character-assassinated by the state media.
  • Institutions like the legislature begin to lose their independence and traditional role.
  • Citizens are increasingly afraid to speak openly on certain issues.
  • Citizens are observed and monitored on cameras and the government can tap into their conversations at will.
  • Governments can snatch anyone from their homes or off the street and detain them without trial on charges of treason or terrorism.
  • Ethnic and religious minorities are persecuted and are made into scapegoats.
  • The state increasingly intervenes in family and community life in an attempt to control citizens’ behaviour.
  • The focus of discussion moves away from the issues and into a narrative of political rivalries and gossip spreads.
  • Governments use bread and circuses to shut people up and distract attention away from their increasing political impotence.
  • Public spaces for demonstrations are closed down and restricted.
  • Large and ridiculous monuments are built to impress the citizens.
  • Individuals have to carry ID with them at all times and the government holds large amounts of information on every citizen.

More: Is Britain On the slippery slope to dictatorship?
http://www.guardian.co.uk/commentisfree/2008/jun/22/civilliberties





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